A timeline I'm so glad I have a Nou too 🥹 Thank you for your notes I'm sorry I've been/still am a shaky chihuahua This is the timeline: Feb 14: both my laptops stop working triggering a complete breakdown, I go over to Nou's. Figure out I can't work/function. Inform my company, figure out I need meds, stay at Nou's until-- Feb 17: Nou travels to Germany, I'm back home which isn't as devastating as I anticipate. I'm able to do laundry and dishes. Each task takes a whole day but I'm plugging away. Feb 21: it's officially a week since my brain exploded, my manager was extremely kind and understanding -- she even offered personal support. She said that she will make a case to upper management for me to come back part time in March when I'm on meds, living with Nou and feeling better Upcoming dates: Feb 28: online therapy session, hopefully can get a script for meds for the panic attacks March 2: birthday, will be a bit sad March 9: mama's death day, officially five years, doesn't feel real March 10: Nou's back! I move in In between-- maybe meeting Maru, the move is way more challenging than he anticipated, he also needs anxiety meds, but maybe we can have matcha and rice pudding in his neighborhood Getting my hair and nails done at Moroccan lady salon-- I want to time this for before Nou arrives so I look cute for her Finding serotonin wherever I can Studying German Sleeping like a bear, ein Bär Mou and Saf got married! I missed it because of sad brain I'm so happy for them! They still poked me and made time for me, both of them individually I love them so much I think I'm slowly building the family I always wanted and needed But right now I'm just a burrito in bed and that's okay |