2023-12-01 - Almost2023-11-28 - You will never be a billionaire 2023-11-28 - The New Drab2023-11-27 - Just 10 more days technically 2023-11-27 - Joy as resistance2023-11-25 - white supremacy and settler colonialism2023-11-24 - Love is real, real is love2023-11-23 - Gobble gobble2023-11-20 - vegan turkey2023-11-18 - olives and oranges2023-11-17 - my body's breaking2023-11-15 - Boycott, divestment and sanctions2023-11-12 - safe warm and cozy2023-11-11 - Dear mama2023-11-06 - I don't quit but please fire me2023-11-05 - Nap for a month please2023-11-03 - Some woowoo bloop2023-11-03 - Anchor down2023-11-01 - What am I doing?2023-10-29 - "I don't want to be history"2023-10-29 - Vogon waltz2023-10-28 - Alhamdulilah2023-10-27 - Just keep swimming?2023-10-27 - dawn of work day 4, summary of work day 32023-10-25 - Work day 22023-10-24 - No calls yet2023-10-23 - It's okay it's okay it's okay2023-10-23 - I don't want to miss the bus again2023-10-23 - Monday, eek2023-10-22 - Still Sunday2023-10-22 - Sunday evening2023-10-22 - Sunday2023-10-21 - A challenging day2023-10-20 - some protests are more protesty than others2023-10-19 - Thank you Miriam2023-10-19 - Gregor Samsa2023-10-19 - -2023-10-19 - end of training day 92023-10-18 - training day 92023-10-18 - why do they hate us2023-10-18 - training day 8? not sure2023-10-16 - some relief2023-10-16 - Training day 62023-10-15 - for me2023-10-15 - Gen Z2023-10-14 - -2023-10-14 - I don't know2023-10-14 - Training day 52023-10-12 - Training Day 42023-10-12 - End of training day 32023-10-11 - training day 32023-10-11 - It doesn't stop being the end of the world2023-10-10 - Happy hamster wheel2023-10-10 - Magic bus 2023-10-10 - training day 22023-10-10 - Training, Day 12023-10-09 - Input for output2023-10-08 - fuck this noise2023-10-08 - a marathon and not a sprint2023-10-08 - Paper Rat, To do lists2023-10-07 - Maru chan 2023-10-07 - Bloop on overtime2023-10-06 - Wait wait wait2023-10-06 - Setta October 2023-10-05 - bad puppet2023-10-05 - I think their policies are nicer now?2023-10-05 - Induction part 22023-10-05 - Induction2023-10-05 - The crystal maze 2023-10-05 - Cog life, day 12023-10-04 - Don't worry2023-10-04 - Aaand I'm starting tomorrow?2023-10-04 - A New Cairo office employee2023-10-04 - Job Interview2023-10-03 - 200 (and one)2023-10-02 - Twitching and not dead2023-10-01 - I made it!2023-10-01 - EEEEE!2023-10-01 - CAIRO HELLSCAPE (I'm okie, so far)2023-10-01 - A po em2023-10-01 - Change of plans2023-09-30 - Gilded cages2023-09-30 - El Maadi2023-09-30 - Anxious anxious anxious2023-09-30 - 98 still going, this one's about death and very heavy2023-09-29 - Sunshine's essay, Exposition, American ghost, Maru et l'amour2023-09-29 - 97 blaming it on the moon2023-09-27 - A day of dissociation and time travel 2023-09-27 - cancel the day2023-09-27 - Vomit2023-09-26 - 94 I must not fear2023-09-25 - Artsy Craftsy2023-09-24 - Out of the bunker?2023-09-24 - useful lies to avoid violence2023-09-24 - 92 My life is strange2023-09-23 - NO MORE BLUEBERRY FRAPPES GOD DAMN IT.2023-09-22 - 90 I can be a bad buddhist2023-09-21 - I like me2023-09-20 - Aunt Flo/Tante Zeft2023-09-19 - Ozumet marakbeya2023-09-19 - Bol Cay No Buldak Bokkeumyun2023-09-18 - 862023-09-18 - Maniac on the dance floor2023-09-16 - Hot hot hot2023-09-14 - Bzz bzz bzz2023-09-13 - I don't Le Caire2023-09-13 - 812023-09-12 - Packed ish2023-09-12 - EEK2023-09-12 - 80 it's very exhausting2023-09-11 - Hubble bubble toil and trouble2023-09-11 - 79 worworworworwor2023-09-11 - 79 Baba taught me chess2023-09-10 - Family and family2023-09-10 - 782023-09-09 - Today, in "Baba's fucking insane"2023-09-08 - Still 762023-09-08 - Calm before the storm2023-09-08 - 76? Brace for impact2023-09-07 - 75 because I can be2023-09-06 - Don't stop me nooow2023-09-06 - -2023-09-06 - 742023-09-05 - 73 the baba2023-09-04 - It's okie it's okie it's okie it's okie2023-09-03 - 71 done done done2023-09-03 - 71 I don't always write like this but I wish I could2023-09-03 - On being autistic.2023-09-02 - Egyptian breakfast2023-09-02 - 70 still2023-09-02 - 70 maybe I'm witchy too2023-09-02 - 70 eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee2023-09-01 - 69 September 2023-08-31 - 68 I'm still counting2023-08-31 - Wobbawobba2023-08-30 - Bit better now2023-08-30 - Brain fog2023-08-30 - -2023-08-29 - I jinxed myself and I'LL DO IT AGAIN2023-08-29 - 662023-08-28 - 65 2023-08-27 - 64 grounding2023-08-27 - 64 vortex2023-08-26 - 63 YAY BABA2023-08-26 - 63 because of course2023-08-26 - Left the party during live music segment2023-08-26 - The village party2023-08-25 - 62 Diplomats2023-08-25 - Obsessed2023-08-25 - 62 Z and the city2023-08-25 - 62 village scene meditation 2023-08-25 - 62 Kojak2023-08-24 - 61 pangs for my panga palanga2023-08-23 - 60 Z and Sea2023-08-22 - it's so yummy :')2023-08-22 - 59 Moussaka Potato2023-08-22 - 59 Potato continued2023-08-22 - 59 GLORIOUS POTATO2023-08-21 - 58 witchy tiktok2023-08-19 - 56 observer 2023-08-19 - Wobbly 2023-08-18 - Too burned out to count2023-08-17 - 54 2023-08-17 - 54 ish, inner babies2023-08-16 - 53 another escape?2023-08-16 - 53 the oldest village on the coast2023-08-14 - 512023-08-14 - 50/512023-08-13 - 50 brunch2023-08-13 - First hour of 502023-08-12 - 49 done with guilt trips2023-08-12 - Party till it's 49 I'M SO HAPPY2023-08-11 - I lost weight2023-08-11 - 48 la mer2023-08-11 - 48 post breakfast2023-08-11 - 482023-08-10 - 472023-08-09 - 46 grounding2023-08-09 - 46 release2023-08-09 - 46 Larry, Curly and Mo2023-08-08 - 45 golden hour2023-08-08 - 45 the fucking asshole in Houston (tw: rape)2023-08-08 - 45 silliness2023-08-08 - 45 recovering2023-08-07 - 44 richer and poorer2023-08-07 - 44 almost dawn2023-08-06 - 43 weird day2023-08-06 - 43, 3 spiders2023-08-06 - 43 culture shock2023-08-05 - 42 flora and fauna2023-08-05 - 42 narcissists and cramps2023-08-05 - 422023-08-04 - 412023-08-04 - First half hour of 412023-08-03 - 40 for papo2023-08-02 - Evening 392023-08-02 - Legitimately 392023-08-02 - Sort of 39, Witchy K2023-08-01 - Technically 38, no power cuts?2023-07-31 - 37 All About Duck2023-07-31 - my femmes and queers ❤️2023-07-31 - 37 Ernst's dreamscape2023-07-30 - 36, yes2023-07-29 - 35 something inappropriate2023-07-28 - 34 fever 2023-07-27 - 33 Cold War 2023-07-27 - 33 wiffy and anadeel2023-07-27 - -2023-07-27 - 33 elbahr piscine2023-07-27 - 33 I'm an alien, I'm a legal alien2023-07-26 - 32 grumpy2023-07-26 - 31 let there be light2023-07-25 - 31 hello darkness my old friend2023-07-25 - 31 every boob has a silver lining2023-07-25 - FUCK. 312023-07-25 - 312023-07-24 - 30 Biso/Beeso2023-07-24 - 30 at the beach2023-07-24 - 30 Front Row Umbellaaaa Ella Ella eh eh eh2023-07-24 - 30 another performance2023-07-24 - 30ish2023-07-23 - 29 Z's stomach bug2023-07-23 - 29 heat wave2023-07-22 - 28 stubborn2023-07-22 - 282023-07-21 - 27 vampire2023-07-21 - 27 throw a whirling dervish out of whirl2023-07-21 - 27 the plot thickens2023-07-21 - 27 death star canteen2023-07-21 - 272023-07-20 - 26 the tide is high2023-07-20 - 26 every man in the village2023-07-20 - 26 ULULATE2023-07-19 - 25 stiff upper lip2023-07-19 - 25 can't bloop2023-07-19 - 25 on the road2023-07-19 - 25 nope2023-07-19 - 25, gecko!2023-07-18 - a sad 24, but I bloop up at the end/Maru backstory2023-07-18 - 24, my siblings are assholes2023-07-18 - 24 brunch time 2023-07-18 - 24 primping and preening2023-07-17 - wee hours, 232023-07-16 - 22, I'm too sexy 2023-07-15 - later that 21 2023-07-15 - 212023-07-14 - 20 continued 2023-07-14 - 20 peace at last?2023-07-13 - A long 192023-07-13 - Aaaaaaagh2023-07-13 - 19 mingling anxiety2023-07-13 - early hours of 192023-07-12 - 18 taken to bed2023-07-12 - 18 Rage.2023-07-10 - Bittersweet 162023-07-10 - 16 owwwwweeee aaaayyyyy2023-07-10 - 16, after the cheese2023-07-10 - 162023-07-09 - End of 152023-07-09 - 15 spoke too soon2023-07-09 - 15 continued2023-07-09 - 152023-07-09 - Barely day 15, goose pimples2023-07-08 - 142023-07-02 - Technically 8 on the North Coast2023-07-01 - Technically 72023-06-30 - 6, still packing + expletives2023-06-30 - Day 6, Packing/why femmes have more bags2023-06-30 - Day 5, meat in the face of defeat2023-06-29 - Day 5 Anxiety2023-06-28 - 4, attempted kidnapping2023-06-27 - 3, regular dance but my butt still hurts2023-06-26 - 2 Afro Caribbean Dance2023-06-25 - Day 1, Aerobics2023-06-24 - 100 part 2, should I start a new countdown?2023-06-24 - 1002023-06-23 - 992023-06-22 - 982023-06-19 - 952023-06-17 - 932023-06-14 - really long 902023-06-14 - Later that 902023-06-14 - Still 90 -- Updated Profile 2023-06-14 - 90 Miriam Margolyes2023-06-13 - 89 lo ve lyyyy2023-06-09 - 85 I'm psychic2023-06-08 - 84 impending cheetos2023-06-07 - 832023-06-05 - 812023-06-02 - 78 panic2023-06-01 - 77, it's not easy being cheeto2023-05-31 - 762023-05-26 - 712023-05-20 - 652023-05-17 - 62 level up2023-05-16 - 612023-05-10 - 552023-05-09 - 54 post therapy2023-05-09 - enough of that2023-05-09 - 542023-05-04 - 492023-05-03 - 482023-05-01 - 46 brain make melt now halp2023-04-30 - 452023-04-29 - Still 442023-04-29 - 442023-04-27 - Late afternoon 422023-04-23 - Evening 382023-04-22 - Morning 372023-04-22 - Nearly 1am, 372023-04-21 - Evening 362023-04-21 - Dawn 362023-04-20 - Evening 352023-04-19 - Almost midnight 342023-04-19 - Nearly 9 am day 342023-04-19 - 5 am, day 342023-04-19 - 2 am Day 342023-04-18 - Evening 332023-04-18 - Later that day 332023-04-18 - Day 332023-04-16 - Day 31 and I didn't get to sleep2023-04-16 - Day 312023-04-15 - Day 30 just crying2023-04-15 - Day 30 🥳 Before dawn2023-04-14 - post eftar tea, still 29, the killers2023-04-14 - Waiting to eat, 292023-04-14 - Concerned, sun in my eyes, 292023-04-14 - Sun is up, 292023-04-14 - 1 ish AM, Day 292023-04-13 - Almost eftar 282023-04-09 - Evening 242023-04-07 - Dawn 222023-04-06 - Still mad, day 212023-04-06 - Day 21-- Bloop assholes2023-04-05 - Day 202023-04-04 - Day 19, projectile vomit2023-04-03 - Almost dawn day 182023-04-02 - I learned the truth at day 172023-04-01 - Evening 162023-04-01 - Day 162023-03-31 - TGI day 15, Friday too2023-03-30 - I want a teacher please 🙏 2023-03-30 - Presents for happy lungs2023-03-30 - Day 14 is a doozy2023-03-30 - 2 weeks 🥳🎊2023-03-29 - Day 132023-03-27 - Day 11, full2023-03-27 - Coughing up my lungs, day 112023-03-27 - Dawn, day 112023-03-26 - Barely day 102023-03-25 - still day 92023-03-25 - Wee hours of day 92023-03-24 - Interesting and uncomfortable (wee hours of day 8)2023-03-22 - Ramadan! (Day 6)2023-03-21 - Day 5 No cigs2023-03-20 - Affectionately, toz feya w toz feek2023-03-20 - a poot for your thoughts? 💨 2023-03-18 - Reboot2023-03-18 - feeling my feelings2023-03-17 - Not "I have to" but "I choose to"2023-03-17 - baba's blessing2023-03-16 - Crossroads or mirage?2023-03-16 - Season of Sarah2023-03-16 - Bros2023-03-16 - SHORTS. OUTSIDE.2023-03-15 - Okay what the actual fuck2023-03-15 - Bird guest: level EPIC2023-03-13 - because of the wonderful things he does 🌟🌪2023-03-12 - And the moon loves me2023-03-11 - Fight2023-03-11 - Bird brunch2023-03-10 - versailles2023-03-09 - Grateful for2023-03-07 - Genes2023-03-07 - "the sense of urgency is not real"2023-03-05 - my brother is Egyptian Nick Offerman2023-03-05 - just bracing2023-03-04 - UNGFLP@%%#*2023-03-04 - Heeby-jeebies, exposition2023-03-04 - Bikh, Egyptian for boo 👻2023-03-02 - A good day2023-03-02 - It's my birthday2023-03-01 - Not through these legs, habibi2023-02-28 - the sun came up 2023-02-28 - Ummm2023-02-28 - teeny bit haunted2023-02-24 - Warm and safe2023-02-21 - Brunch2023-02-21 - Bird saga 6, romantic winter, fambly stuff2023-02-19 - Taken to bed, bird identification!2023-02-17 - Can't sleep, body and breathing practice2023-02-16 - Nothing cataclysmic is happening2023-02-16 - A hoopoe! Bird saga part 4? 5?2023-02-14 - Cat hotel2023-02-13 - Restaurant drama, part 2/final--other updates2023-02-12 - I got scammed2023-02-12 - the wang saga part 3, romance?2023-02-11 - Raincheck, literally 2023-02-10 - wang saga continued, rise of the yowang2023-02-09 - the wang saga2023-02-08 - grace and space2023-02-07 - scarves for woodwork2023-02-06 - not far away for everyone2023-02-05 - language2023-02-03 - everything everywhere all at once2023-02-02 - parasocial2023-02-02 - a series of moments2023-02-01 - guess who's back2023-01-29 - freakishly buoyant2023-01-29 - this makes me feel better2023-01-28 - the exorcist2023-01-27 - Maslow's hierarchy of needs2023-01-26 - The war2023-01-24 - more from early 90s san fernando2023-01-23 - The witch2023-01-20 - Don't panic2023-01-18 - Pipsqueaks and self speak2023-01-17 - How to beat Wordle2023-01-16 - Teas2023-01-14 - Neurospicy2023-01-14 - Spread too thin2023-01-13 - Feed the birds2023-01-10 - Intrusive floating2023-01-04 - Book-tok2023-01-04 - Happy new 20232022-12-31 - Wake up slow2022-12-30 - Killing demons2022-12-28 - My body wants to be a monkey2022-12-21 - the comfort of being tiny in vastness2022-12-19 - Oh god2022-12-19 - over arching themes2022-12-14 - fight flight freeze fuuu2022-12-12 - don't binge American Horror Story2022-12-11 - this was supposed to be something else2022-12-10 - I saw your notes!2022-12-10 - oh wow2019-11-13 - I did the thing!2019-05-31 - Hi2018-02-21 - -2018-02-04 - Being there2018-01-17 - people who can't love and people whom I love2018-01-13 - Things I learned from Douglas Adams 2018-01-12 - I don't care. I love it.2018-01-09 - Knowing better2017-11-24 - Democracy2017-11-16 - Fine. I dont completely hate Kerouac.2017-11-10 - I remembered this song2017-10-07 - Bicycle carriers and hypocrisy, harry potter and the pyramid of maslow, university challenge and fucking woowoo crystals2017-07-06 - things that feel wonderful despite everything2017-06-17 - letters from the underworld2017-05-12 - the russians are taking over2017-05-11 - sorry I was busy being a socialite2017-04-06 - Stinky brain farts2017-04-03 - help the helpers2017-03-29 - out utero2017-03-26 - On cars and narcissism2017-03-22 - No theme2017-03-19 - Orbiting2017-03-06 - Mental notes2017-03-04 - On my birthday2017-02-28 - i prefer sticks and stones2017-02-25 - brace for impact2017-01-31 - hubble bubble smoking trouble2017-01-16 - Words with friends2017-01-10 - Contemporary dance lessons2017-01-08 - Fear2016-12-18 - thank you and you and you and you2016-12-17 - Jon Snow2016-12-13 - Mid-apocalyptic observations2016-11-29 - Things it took me thirty years to learn2016-11-28 - I could've cuddled through the apocalypse2016-11-24 - I didn't know what else to do2016-11-22 - Happy place2016-11-17 - You're not a good liar2016-11-16 - Reasons why my mama is the cutest:2016-11-16 - I feel like im following books around2016-11-14 - A question for the ages2016-11-13 - Try, try, try, try, try2016-11-10 - Toastiness2016-11-10 - Unmasked2016-11-09 - The day it all caught up to us2016-11-08 - And the irony is2016-11-07 - It is returned2016-11-06 - Doubting my doubt to trick myself into the faith my love deserves, I deserve (and donuts)2016-10-30 - I think I can I think I can2016-10-27 - Meandering is real2016-10-26 - Processing2016-10-23 - This feeling2016-10-16 - My Oberon2016-10-13 - It'll probably be fine2016-10-12 - Mother of cats, I feel like Khaleesi2016-10-09 - the 72 hours of bliss that I don't ever want to remember differently2016-10-06 - Roxaaaaanne2016-09-30 - Oh shit2016-09-21 - My new party trick2016-09-21 - A whole new woooorld2016-09-20 - Because everything is bizarre2016-09-17 - Smiles2016-09-16 - He found God in the morning2016-09-13 - Fuck it fuck it fuck it all2016-09-04 - Moar life themes2016-08-24 - Because2016-08-18 - And then the ow. 2016-08-14 - Closure is a dirty word2016-08-12 - -2016-08-10 - The end of the beginning2016-08-09 - A silver lining?2016-08-09 - Awww thinking of yooou (YOU FUCKING JERK)2016-08-08 - At least I'm sure I'm real2016-07-20 - Bye2016-07-13 - Need squished2016-07-12 - Know thyself2016-07-10 - The theme2016-07-09 - Trust is a verb2016-07-05 - You better not doubt you better not cry2016-07-01 - you have such a good heart you didnt know2016-06-30 - -2016-06-22 - Check your privilege2016-06-18 - Everything so far2016-06-11 - It is not poo-- forsooth, tis fertilizer :)2016-06-07 - Bleak feeling2016-06-06 - I do need that safety net2016-06-06 - Speed bump month again2016-06-03 - All I want is a room somewhere 2016-06-02 - How it feels to be paranoid2016-05-30 - Dear Pasghetti, my inner doubt and protector monkey2016-05-17 - The beginning and the end2016-04-17 - Pay attention2016-04-11 - Before you diagnose yourself with anxiety...2016-04-09 - Omnomnomnom2016-04-04 - Don't be small, life is bigger2016-03-27 - Douda douda douda2016-03-27 - The things I'd say if at any point you demonstrated you had a heart2016-03-01 - Tomorrow I turn 302016-02-25 - -2016-02-19 - The time we fought about ducks2016-02-17 - Dear Sarah, Sometimes take the day to brain fart2016-02-10 - I'm having a panic attack and he's asleep2016-01-26 - I like2016-01-20 - I forgot to tell you2016-01-18 - Nook2016-01-07 - How to protect your relationship2016-01-06 - That part where I obsess over obsessing and ruin my life a little bit2015-12-24 - Manifestos don't really wonder2015-12-03 - People outside the bubble of love2015-12-01 - I will, damn it2015-11-21 - I'm not sorry I'm not sorry I'm not sorry2015-11-19 - Talk to yourself like someone you love2015-11-15 - Dear bored and afraid and considering quiet doom:2015-11-09 - This is not a blog2015-11-04 - I found Annie2015-08-31 - I hope2015-08-23 - Humans who make me feel loved2015-08-22 - But I might go to the beach soon, so there's that2015-08-20 - I don't care-- I love it2015-08-14 - Entering creepy ass deja vu phase...?2015-08-04 - T Minus 8 months2015-07-26 - Princess Wino2015-07-22 - well its not so easy to abandon twee vomit2015-07-17 - don't hurt the grandmother holding a baby holding a kitten2015-07-09 - D 2015-07-06 - I never thought2015-07-02 - I sincerely hope I never find Sarah2015-06-27 - Okay fine2015-06-26 - beach friends cat mountain2015-06-13 - This time he picked W -- love (again) and bravery2015-06-12 - And then--2015-06-09 - pillow talk2015-05-31 - Please share and like!2015-05-18 - Tinder2015-04-21 - sleep > boys2015-04-09 - everything2015-03-14 - a metaphor?2015-02-21 - a little too honest2015-01-28 - Boop things in vaguely chronological order2015-01-21 - Selfish2015-01-02 - one letter2014-12-28 - off to see the wizard2014-12-22 - what gives? 2014-12-21 - I went down to the crossroads, fell down on my knees2014-12-19 - morning mirror2014-12-15 - love creature2014-12-13 - how I feel about a bunch of people you don't know2014-12-11 - :( :) as indicated2014-12-10 - Zooz2014-12-09 - an update2014-11-22 - why do you smoke?2014-11-20 - not the kind of thing you say2014-11-17 - mother eff2014-11-14 - learn faster2014-11-13 - I'm going to be sick2014-11-06 - life is a highway2014-11-03 - fine lines2014-10-30 - love is easy2014-10-28 - Nope2014-10-21 - and I'm still nowhere near good enough to drive in Cairo2014-10-18 - in my head2014-10-15 - she just needs some minor adjustments 2014-09-25 - My body is floating2014-09-25 - My soul is in orbit2014-09-18 - Meep2014-09-14 - little girls2014-09-11 - temples and prisons2014-09-07 - yoyo-ing2014-09-02 - developments2014-08-31 - why you should (never?) date a writer2014-08-31 - and2014-08-29 - break better2014-08-28 - -2014-08-28 - because I haven't done a drunk update and that seems wrong2014-08-27 - coping mechanisms2014-08-22 - I don't know anything. I don't know what I knew. I have the flu. 2014-08-19 - the desert yogi2014-08-17 - yuck2014-08-17 - about all the integrity I can muster 2014-08-16 - this2014-08-14 - empathy2014-08-13 - I found a pretty 2014-08-13 - new2014-08-11 - It was kind of ... natural? 2014-08-10 - over under and everything in between all the time2014-08-10 - paroles et paroles2014-08-09 - OKAY FINE2014-08-08 - be bitt er ne ne ne ne ness2014-08-06 - *seductive dance moves?!*2014-08-06 - Still2014-08-02 - something honest, something to read2014-08-01 - today I discovered:2014-07-31 - BAHAHAHAHA :'D2014-07-30 - "moral relativism"2014-07-30 - Eid massacre2014-07-29 - This makes me so happy :')2014-07-29 - Are you kidding me? You know what, sarcasm from now on2014-07-29 - One more thing2014-07-29 - Dear "nuanced" view2014-07-28 - Butterflies2014-07-26 - dear "both sides"2014-07-25 - even if especially because you were right2014-07-24 - I had strawberry2014-07-23 - "Now if only he/she was Muslim"2014-07-23 - but you said2014-07-22 - "Israel has the right to defend itself"2014-07-22 - and you should Google him now2014-07-18 - how my head works2014-07-18 - ugh ugh UGH2014-07-17 - In case you haven't noticed2014-07-16 - lemonade and ugly crows2014-07-16 - woe is me, t' have seen what I have seen, see what I see2014-07-14 - light at the end of the ice cream cravings/inconsolable weeping2014-07-14 - And as always2014-07-13 - resigned to be heart broken2014-07-11 - the past three hours2014-07-11 - the secret list of creepy things2014-07-11 - What I'll keep2014-07-09 - I hate being angry2014-07-09 - How to royally fuck us up:2014-07-08 - Ratios and subtle stabs and how I ought to make a plan2014-07-01 - Coconut puffs with cherries2014-06-21 - !@#$2014-06-16 - Feel the burn2014-06-15 - B2014-06-10 - things I think2014-06-10 - :)2014-06-09 - get bizzeh :|2014-06-08 - I'm so dead wrong sometimes. Cute depression. Aw.2014-06-05 - my body2014-06-04 - what I have to believe again2014-06-03 - now now now 2014-06-02 - Okay2014-05-30 - Thank you2014-05-27 - O love that will not let me go2014-05-26 - to-live list2014-05-26 - to-function list2014-05-25 - today is my favorite day/once upon a time/epiousios2014-05-24 - I can only think of one2014-05-23 - Oh well2014-05-20 - between the truth2014-05-19 - selfish2014-05-17 - foolhardy endeavors2014-05-09 - hungover on many levels2014-05-05 - different2014-05-04 - Persona2014-05-04 - Tenderness2014-04-28 - hiding (hopefully for the last time)2014-04-24 - retraction2014-04-23 - trust2014-04-22 - something2014-04-18 - put up or shut up2014-04-14 - why you should live through a heavy night2014-04-13 - I lost Sarah2014-04-08 - I'm pretty sure2014-04-04 - working it2014-03-29 - steel vagina2014-03-05 - easy love2014-03-01 - still works2014-02-24 - Comfort2014-02-22 - the baby clot2013-07-27 - -2013-07-14 - Somebody somewhere likes me2013-06-23 - relevating (3la ra2y lala)2013-06-03 - drip2013-06-01 - I don't want to lose faith2013-05-31 - low2013-05-29 - the next one2013-05-28 - why do they always have to say something stupid?2013-05-28 - decision time2013-05-26 - all kinds of hungry2013-05-25 - my two Ks2013-05-24 - A guide to surviving PMSy loved one/Hope2013-05-19 - more gushing2013-05-16 - first jam2013-05-14 - everybody I'm thinking about2013-05-13 - and the force of nature replied:2013-05-11 - your diary entry2013-05-07 - I adore Tim Minchin!2013-05-07 - disquieting2013-05-06 - OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!2013-05-06 - happy sham elnessim!2013-05-05 - Soundcloud!2013-05-05 - I saw it2013-05-04 - Stay tuned2013-05-04 - okay I was bullshitting myself2013-05-01 - DH Lawrence on egoist men2013-04-30 - breaking up, like a boss2013-04-26 - not working out. i want to be CEO of Procrastination Incorporated.2013-04-22 - Galatea under construction2013-04-21 - I feel2013-04-18 - wheeen the moon hits your eye like a big pizza pie!2013-04-14 - i'm spiderman2013-04-13 - my new modus operandi2013-04-11 - -2013-04-11 - Rainer, Before Summer Rain2013-04-10 - pieces2013-04-09 - what I learned from Asia (and my girlfriends)2013-04-07 - I MISS YOU2013-04-06 - grunt. a determined one.2013-04-05 - Bye Kuku2013-04-04 - i feel batty and we're all bats2013-04-02 - explosion of fluffiness2013-04-01 - weathered2013-03-26 - the early middle of understanding2013-03-23 - MK2013-03-16 - Like2013-03-15 - me too :)2013-03-13 - dance me through the panic2013-03-10 - baba='like jelly' fan?2013-03-10 - Rilke's Apple Orchard2013-03-08 - orange soda2013-03-03 - 272013-03-02 - Not exactly closure but close enough2013-02-28 - i dont know, maybe this2013-02-28 - say what you mean and mean what you say2013-02-25 - thank you for asking 2013-02-23 - Cake isn't going to cut it this year2013-02-21 - lists are soothing2013-02-18 - Momentum (hi Reem)2013-01-10 - i cant change time2012-10-26 - I guess I'm still heartbroken2012-10-22 - Genius with a side order of fries2012-10-18 - Fehs2012-10-16 - In the mood for shrimp2012-09-29 - Do not conclude I'm engaged. Do not hold your breath.2012-09-25 - Ow.2012-09-19 - something old something new2012-09-14 - Come again another day2012-09-12 - how am I?2012-09-03 - istanbul constantinople istanbul constantinople2012-09-01 - I'm beat, beet red (something Rivers said)2012-08-25 - dear impossible loved one,2012-08-11 - if i were honest if i were drunk2012-08-06 - peanut butter is amazing2012-07-24 - the bits and pieces song, a mundane update and things to look forward to2012-07-20 - I want to taste you but your lips are venomous2012-07-18 - Are you ready for this jelly?2012-07-12 - there's a medley of celebratory gunfire outside. i'm scared and i love you.2012-07-08 - On snowballs, morons and the evolution of oops2012-07-02 - Art is fart, better out than in (someone pretending not to quote someone)2012-06-28 - Non nonchalance2012-06-28 - only the ones i nurture believe i can nurture2012-06-27 - hole2012-06-25 - what i'm 'into'2012-06-19 - skinny red belt idea 2 (disdainful optimism)2012-06-12 - De corpore et sanguine2012-06-11 - And now for a limited time offer! The Suez, 80% off that's right 80%!!!2012-05-30 - doubt and pain (and how everyone should wake up at least once)2012-05-29 - another list2012-05-27 - more than anything2012-05-25 - hysterics, doom and uterus-targeted television2012-05-23 - good kinds of stuck2012-05-23 - to anyone considering it2012-05-21 - no longer my soapbox2012-05-19 - a paranoiac's take on Google phone number verification2012-05-14 - perks of quitting smoking2012-05-09 - true friendship is2012-05-05 - splitting/false dilemma/black and white thinking is not my fricken fault2012-04-30 - impersonal ad (going to turkey for the wrong reasons)2012-04-26 - packaged adventure2012-04-22 - quickie2012-04-17 - Pause to consider2012-04-11 - skinny red belt idea 12012-04-02 - major themes so far2012-03-31 - I support stupid (...and five gushy gooey things that ought to be in fine print)2012-03-28 - Sex bomb2012-03-19 - upper class cairo aka the seventeenth century2012-03-14 - uh oh2012-03-13 - first impression2012-03-12 - and most of all the ghost2012-03-07 - Exclamations! !! !!!!2012-03-03 - prompt 103 and the butchering of emily dickinson2012-02-26 - the virtues of noise and selective memory (and cake)2012-02-23 - with a little help2012-02-21 - glamorous danger makes me want to puke2012-02-18 - Rilke, again. Also, a list of uncertainties.2012-02-15 - not an aubade2012-02-09 - Maybe this happened so I could find Jeanette Winterson?2012-01-31 - too much unrest to rest. good. 2012-01-29 - nothing potentially2012-01-27 - my dance :)2012-01-18 - to everything2012-01-15 - this made my ears happy2012-01-13 - -2012-01-08 - universal self consciousness2012-01-03 - two women who make me think2012-01-01 - political correctness gone mad :)2012-01-01 - first conclusion of 2012-- rebounds...2011-12-31 - my oldest friends2011-12-30 - I'm so lucky that my teachers taught with love2011-12-28 - i'm believed in! now i know why people make their own religions2011-12-27 - this is free2011-12-27 - that excerpt from fiona again2011-12-27 - after inevitable, necessary and so damn hard...it's kinda easy, comfortable and kind2011-12-26 - the grandma's are on to something2011-12-25 - giving up on breathing2011-12-25 - I want to walk like you talk like you too2011-12-21 - get over yourself2011-12-18 - as if2011-12-17 - it's not wasted2011-12-16 - and you might want to have a tissue handy2011-12-15 - right under my needle2011-12-14 - scratch that, no SCREW that2011-12-14 - now i know you wont miss me2011-12-12 - old electra and young oedipus2011-12-11 - inconclusive but worth remembering2011-12-08 - fear and love2011-12-07 - please someone be soft2011-11-29 - I love DH Lawrence2011-11-26 - Musee des Beaux Arts-- W.H. Auden2011-11-06 - Actually2011-11-01 - not a suicide note2011-10-28 - -2011-10-28 - Why should I cry for you? -Sting2011-10-27 - solidarity2011-10-24 - I think I'm an 80 year old lesbian2011-10-20 - 1001 things2011-10-17 - i'm angry2011-10-17 - violence2011-10-15 - the relief of being utterly, utterly pathetic2011-10-14 - Okay2011-10-11 - 'not a bed of roses'2011-10-10 - -2011-10-09 - break2011-10-06 - perks2011-10-05 - not sniffles and not dying! woohoo!2011-10-03 - dear smiley koshk man2011-09-30 - oink oink2011-09-28 - wish me sniffles2011-09-26 - I'm not supposed to mind the following:2011-09-23 - newly acquired skills2011-09-20 - sharing is caring2011-09-13 - A hug for my weird2011-09-11 - easing in2011-09-09 - kinky gentle2011-09-08 - a sinister sort of compromise2011-09-08 - Making meaning2011-09-07 - spacey2011-08-31 - padding2011-08-27 - eid approaches2011-08-25 - friendship and affection2011-08-23 - hot men and chocolate got nothing on babies2011-08-21 - the boring definition of human2011-08-17 - 'Inevitable human drama'2011-08-14 - yummy things2011-08-11 - the party has been postponed (indefinitely)2011-08-08 - inner struggle. (not gas)2011-08-01 - sagacious gender and relationship Q&A2011-07-25 - Romance2011-07-23 - old and new, all and you2011-07-14 - Unexpected smile2011-07-13 - :) Thank you, you're sweet, and I needed this2011-07-12 - because being gracious for too long inevitably results in the RAGE WITHIN harangue of a diary entry2011-07-11 - Letters to a Young Poet, Fear of the Inexplicable--Rainer Maria Rilke2011-07-07 - miss2011-07-01 - the story of 24 hours of this road-- and something about fairness2011-06-29 - Ssshh2011-06-27 - On optimism.2011-06-21 - RIP car.2011-06-19 - dear your head,2011-06-15 - Love2011-06-09 - lots of sex analogies.2011-05-31 - my life2011-05-21 - On my own2011-05-19 - -2011-05-03 - Somebody else's music + your mood = cool idea for website :)2011-04-26 - everything, so far2011-04-26 - from the april 2011 version2011-04-25 - i asked them to think about abstraction--they googled it2011-04-20 - teaching, take 22011-04-03 - IMMA HUNNA MUNNA LIKE THERE'S NO FREAKIN TOMORROW2011-04-02 - For you will still be here tomorrow, but your dreams may not2011-02-28 - Warped vs. Warmth2011-02-26 - Hesitant (but hopefully not for long?)2011-02-06 - Drink your tea2011-02-04 - February 4, 20112011-02-04 - Internet black out, Revolution, Fighting police thugs week2011-01-26 - Friday's Million Protester March!2011-01-26 - Revolution in Egypt2011-01-16 - Just one person2011-01-07 - *muttering*2010-12-24 - Everything2010-12-21 - Hula-- not for the faint of heart2010-12-18 - \o/ (click the quotation)2010-12-13 - Okay, I will2010-12-12 - It's no mystery.2010-12-11 - dear tutu (paranoia),2010-12-10 - don't ever be afraid of the parts of life that feel like filler!2010-12-08 - a futile explanation that i'm never going to make to him:2010-12-04 - dear everyone who thinks i'm nuts2010-12-01 - random act of like2010-11-27 - a message to mean mr. mustard:2010-11-26 - contemplating2010-11-23 - being a homebody in your twenties can have mystery, yes it can too damn it. observe:2010-11-21 - Tomorrow, Yesterday, Today2010-11-20 - Shy2010-10-28 - Advantages of Crying 2010-10-22 - I WANT a cross dressing, classic rock loving, comic wit touting, clownishly childlike heart bearing girlymanboy.2010-10-21 - happiness2010-09-25 - why you don't stand a snowball's chance in hell2010-09-23 - beebol loving beebol2010-09-19 - Let it be2010-09-14 - the lemur of my dreams2010-09-06 - the move, to the tune of 'i have confidence' by rodgers and hammerstein2010-09-03 - 2010 so far2010-08-31 - koo koo ka choo2010-08-26 - And while I show them, I'll show me2010-08-24 - reluctant believer2010-08-19 - dear marriage missionaries,2010-08-10 - Equanimity2010-08-09 - Pink Elephants2010-07-26 - man, you're so centered.2010-07-24 - why it never became something more?2010-07-14 - ...2010-06-28 - conversation with a child2010-06-18 - my fellow human bean2010-05-22 - okay bye bye2010-05-21 - teenie boppers2010-05-20 - cause i miss 3err and i hope he's not dead2010-05-17 - dear neighbor guy who lives under a rock2010-05-09 - do you karaoke?2010-05-06 - apparently i do look like mabel chiltern.2010-05-03 - do i look like mabel chiltern to you? she asks the canvas2010-05-01 - presents2010-04-26 - developments2010-04-18 - it's not funny2010-04-10 - milan says nudity is a shroud2010-04-05 - i love2010-04-02 - A bid farewell to slutty Sarah.2010-03-31 - now what2010-03-30 - my last entry in prettier words2010-03-29 - spandex2010-03-26 - don't get caught2010-03-25 - under the table2010-03-23 - notes for Emanuel2010-03-18 - madadayo2010-03-14 - even if i'm not right, you're wrong2010-03-12 - i don't know fish2010-03-11 - the summer of my mild content..-ment er...2010-03-06 - mu'abla lel-wazeefa. an interview. (sometimes english is easier, it's a whore of a language really)2010-03-05 - what enough means to me2009-12-27 - nuclear2009-12-25 - kaden2009-11-22 - get with the program2009-11-12 - sleep...please....please? pleeeease!2009-11-06 - subdued sunshine2009-11-03 - academic deluge and i want2009-10-28 - It's that simple.2009-10-05 - i'm not bird girl anymore, i'm sarah and i'll wait2009-09-22 - unamused2009-09-11 - he's my baby2009-09-09 - recycled, stifled and sleep deprived2009-09-07 - Dear Infinity, You pushed the wrong button2009-08-27 - vodafone can suck it and so can the rest of em2009-08-20 - kisses with no promises2009-08-20 - in a moment2009-08-18 - despite what you may think2009-08-17 - Mirah---Cold, cold water (she sings for my soul i swear)2009-08-16 - hot pink day2009-08-06 - shepherds pie2009-08-05 - excerpt from a letter to a young fish2009-08-05 - 'i feel a power growing in my hair'2009-08-01 - everything changes everything stays the same2009-07-31 - phase 22009-07-26 - you're going to blog about this, aren't you?2009-07-21 - my take on religion2009-07-21 - why anyone getting hitched would bring up the subject of other people getting hitched2009-07-17 - the wedding ditcher2009-07-01 - Effort upon effort upon effort2009-06-23 - Outted2009-06-14 - Gigi and Koki help me say goodbye2009-06-04 - license to do nothing, i love him so much i forgot and it's a beautiful day2009-05-10 - i broke my mind2009-05-09 - i found romance2008-07-23 - miss2008-07-16 - forever freak *waving lighter in air*2008-07-09 - meet darla2008-07-09 - Faith2008-07-08 - love. again. i know.2008-07-02 - want2008-06-30 - this is WAR2008-06-27 - chronic case of STUPID2008-06-27 - i'm a sick girl2008-06-27 - Spiritual vacuums, fish and the guy who told me to write before he went on vacation2008-06-27 - -2008-06-26 - the rules2008-06-25 - s & m2008-06-22 - checking out2008-06-21 - why i love love more than i love you2008-06-19 - a new day2008-06-17 - waiting is like a suit that fits funny2008-06-12 - itchy tickly thoughts2008-06-12 - once upon a time i got everything i ever wanted, and i passed2008-06-11 - be all you can be (but try not to shoot anybody)2008-06-10 - repress for success2008-06-10 - tenderness2008-06-08 - -2008-06-06 - a good cry2008-06-05 - hey you2008-06-03 - i've still got it, you don't2008-06-03 - the refugee story2008-06-02 - -2008-05-31 - in betweens2008-05-27 - -2008-05-15 - letters2008-05-12 - god DAMN magic2008-04-29 - wrong2008-04-16 - truths i dare not speak2008-04-13 - -2008-03-18 - next spring2008-02-29 - floating2008-02-23 - stupid penis2008-01-12 - i can't believe it's not love!2008-01-09 - i give up. someone buy me five cats and an apartment with floral wallpaper2008-01-03 - ow.2007-12-25 - -2007-12-10 - hate to love2007-12-06 - ugly secrets2007-12-04 - i found sarah when she lost someone2007-12-01 - pocket hope2007-11-30 - first cry2007-11-26 - regret2007-10-29 - surrealism2007-10-27 - dear mr. sarah,2007-10-23 - nothing new but all the same new again2007-10-17 - i found cowardice2007-09-29 - really here2007-09-19 - new old2007-09-12 - one great love2007-09-08 - love is letting go2007-09-07 - and he sent us down so that one day we may return2007-09-02 - i want to know what love is2007-08-28 - i don't settle anymore2007-08-18 - draining manipulation2007-08-01 - xavier2007-07-17 - sarah found resolve2007-07-13 - the gig, part II2007-07-08 - i promise i'll get over it eventually, really, i know i'm sick of it too2007-07-07 - this man hurts my heart2007-07-02 - i don't feel like it2007-06-28 - The lover who saved his beloved from drowning (excerpt from Conference of the Birds by Attar)2007-06-23 - i'm like a funny alanis2007-06-20 - pour pratiquer2007-06-19 - cigarette2007-06-19 - boys suck2007-06-17 - change of fortunes2007-06-08 - readiness2007-05-22 - defeat2007-05-17 - chorus2007-05-08 - not quite dead but not quite living2007-05-01 - tired2007-03-28 - mess2007-03-23 - because repression is bad for blood pressure:2007-03-21 - afraid.2007-03-17 - forgetting ideal love.2007-03-08 - same topic, new ideas :)2007-03-03 - i'm even more legal now2007-02-23 - repeating myself, but i like it this time2007-02-23 - i cant, i cant, i cant stand losing2007-02-23 - i cant, i cant, i cant stand losing2007-02-20 - they love me and refuse to leave me2007-02-12 - having an amazing second week!2007-02-06 - not having a good first week2007-02-03 - messy2007-02-02 - the most profound entry i've ever written2007-01-27 - more obscured rambling2007-01-21 - my family should be on reality tv2007-01-17 - Flu/Variation of Bronchitis and Jet Li2006-12-28 - rambling.2006-12-23 - Living, and a living thing I own.2006-12-02 - a happeh update (for once)2006-11-28 - a short informational break.2006-11-24 - Wrong2006-11-14 - Run-away2006-11-05 - i am not lost.2006-10-29 - again.2006-09-29 - vocabulary2006-09-20 - Too Much Love Will Kill You-- Queen2006-09-11 - i dont care if its childish i need to do it2006-09-08 - George Eliot is a chick.2006-09-06 - yet another religious analogy ...yeees...agaaiiin2006-09-02 - alone.2006-08-30 - emm i can reference you to back when i was alive2006-08-29 - potato upon you and your people ohmmm2006-08-29 - past present future2006-08-25 - another summer boiling point2006-08-25 - i want to be here now2006-08-23 - is trust another sweet nothing?2006-08-19 - another trip2006-08-17 - even coral stings2006-08-08 - *out of service*2006-08-03 - taking off the rose colored glasses2006-08-02 - perhaps i'll always ask this question2006-07-30 - Qana2006-07-30 - worrying about worrying...again2006-07-27 - help2006-07-25 - oddities, arrivals and worries2006-07-24 - not this one2006-07-22 - vapid little problems2006-07-21 - given space2006-07-20 - Good girl2006-07-20 - silliness2006-07-18 - two years2006-07-16 - Excuse Me?!2006-07-13 - analogy of the day2006-07-11 - Honor2006-07-08 - idle thoughts at idle hours2006-07-08 - homesick2006-07-06 - you are fearless but i am afraid.2006-07-03 - fuzziness2006-07-01 - anger2006-06-23 - Miscommunication2006-06-21 - i yam what i yam - ack ack ack ack ack!2006-06-20 - monday monday...and the wee hours of tuesday2006-06-18 - standing.2006-06-16 - clear skies2006-06-16 - i found sarah and she lost it all2006-06-15 - what i loved today2006-06-13 - ready for take off2006-06-13 - someone told me rushdie got with a bimbo *siiiigh*2006-06-12 - my loop2006-06-12 - why can't we be friends? *jiggle*2006-06-09 - until we meet again2006-06-05 - i am gaining conviction.2006-06-05 - laptop head2006-06-04 - let me be2006-05-30 - low2006-05-28 - new poison2006-05-27 - khalasoony2006-05-26 - i'm with the band2006-05-24 - za life2006-05-23 - useless is as useless does2006-05-22 - blechiness2006-05-22 - with a little help from 30s-60s flicks2006-05-21 - Growing2006-05-19 - at last2006-05-18 - and now for the weather in my BIZARRE AND CONSTANTLY STORMY LIFE2006-05-15 - it's almost like i have a life2006-05-11 - the theatre2006-05-10 - post-debut2006-05-09 - opening night2006-05-09 - oh SWEET LORD IN HEAVEN!2006-05-07 - fiiine i'll do the god dang article2006-05-07 - mornin2006-05-07 - blah2006-05-06 - religion rant2006-05-06 - conclusion2006-05-04 - wunderbar!2006-05-03 - why, why, why, why, why?2006-04-30 - she solved it!2006-04-29 - spiralling2006-04-28 - tirededed2006-04-26 - her pride killed her dignity2006-04-25 - different lovelife recap2006-04-24 - I see sand...sand...and oh, whats that? right...more sand...2006-04-23 - another regret2006-04-21 - meat being pulled through the daily grind(er)2006-04-21 - Ovid2006-04-20 - You like?2006-04-20 - not so quick love life recap2006-04-01 - orson to the rescue2006-03-22 - Your traditional Update.2006-03-20 - laptop karate2006-03-19 - Enforced Disappearance2006-03-14 - *twitch*2006-03-12 - Overload2006-03-12 - Go figure...2006-03-12 - GET DOWN! (not THAT way you pervs)2006-03-07 - Silleh.2006-03-06 - Unraveling--Deb Talan2006-03-05 - Fickle2006-03-05 - Coffee date2006-03-05 - Hello there Stranger.