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Day 5 No cigs
Written @ 2:50 p.m. on 2023-03-21

Ritual is the hardest part

Morning cig

Cig with hot bevvy

Cig after food

So I'm building new ones

I do sit ups in bed

Go walk

If I want to cry, I cry

I know I've said that before but I can't explain how much of a difference that's made

Crying like a baby, actually like a baby, no shame, from my gut

And saying no, without explaining, without anger or fear

Just no

Today they went to visit mama's grave

And I can't handle that

'No, I don't think I will'

Simple but elusive for so long

Tiny things I didn't understand were so powerful

It started with breathing

If you don't know where to start

Learn about breathing

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