An update Things are good and bad My laptops decided to stop working at the same time on my most busy work day triggering endless panic attacks Nou was my rock and my squish place and my everything My manager was incredibly kind and understanding -- I'm hopeful I can come back part time when my brain doesn't hate me I booked with a psychiatrist who's near my house Hopefully getting on meds soon Hopefully moving in with Nou later, need to be away from baba to be a person I think Terrified that he will hurt Nou But maybe he'll just let me go without too much fuss this time He knows she's successful, he doesn't know she's trans My brother might know because they have a friend in common but I don't think the friend would mention it and even if he did, my brother would never out her Life here is a lot scarier for her and the more obvious her body gets, the harder it's going to be I have lots of oversized jackets and hoodies for her but eventually she has to move for her safety I want to be stronger I want to be a safe place too |