Sad baby walking there's a Moroccan beauty salon across the street from my house I'm never washing my own hair or painting my own nails again I stayed with Nou over the weekend and the first bit of this week she intimidated the laptop fixing people while poking screws into neat little piles and my heart melted I'm learning how to be transparent about my desires and terror and mush It's new Feeling safe with someone Mou and Saf invited me to their family reception event (pre-wedding thing?) and it makes me want to cry I have work though They said they're going to have a friend thing later too so I'll try to go then I'm still looking for a shrink Getting on meds, exercising I don't want anybody to worry anymore Nou's going to check in when she's in Berlin I want to be healthier when she comes back I'm going to miss the dad jokes and her shrieking with laughter over really really really bad puns I have to poke Beebo and Maru too Have to get organized again Do the laundry, sew the holes, finish my drawing, keep learning German Baby steps, injured tired baby steps |