Twitching and not dead I'm home I'm alive Not a single lamp post was on Which is fun on giant highways in the middle of the desert GPS was confused of course I was thrilled to find exits covered with concrete blocks But I made it Things I don't want to forget: The texture of boba, chewy but soft Sunrise batata's warm, warm hugs Disturbing stories about my ex-wife-not-ex-wife's partner because Cairo is tiny And queer Cairo is tinier I felt closure somehow Asser the baby receptionist kind of screwed me over The ring I liked was not included with the piercing fee because it wasn't a standard medical one Which would've been good information to know before it was put in my nose Dr. Sam looked like a model She had messy tousled hair, a Christian Dior tote bag and a New York accent She was very sweet, good at her job, which I got the feeling she was bored with She was also very very late but after being on the roads, now I think it's amazing she made it at all EVERY DAY? PEOPLE DO THIS EVERY DAY?! They tried to sell me some expensive aftercare thing that was basically a saline solution and I declined I said I was broke and didn't budget for the ring so they gave me a discount! I haggled! I didn't mean to! Maybe my Egyptian genes are finally working? Agoraphobia challenge accomplished? I don't know if it's accomplished really I'm still shaking It was all just as harrowing as I thought it would be More than I thought it would be I thought I'd recognize something, ANYTHING Our new demi-god has made so many bridges and roads Most of them were still under construction I DROVE THROUGH A MOUNTAIN It was creepy Driving through city congestion in the past was stressful, yes And very slow And we all developed very large right calf muscles from the traffic But at least there were people, there were signs All these giant desert highways are terrifying, one wrong turn and you're in a different city I used up half a tank And my wallet is empty, empty I cried all my eyeliner away But the Maadi trees waved at meee And everyone was so nice Second toll person gave me directions and didn't make me pay Sunrise Batata was like an oasis I was me, fully me, no masks We talked about masks We talked about everything And I didn't have to stop and explain I'm worried I drained her I was not well I'm still not well But it's okie, that's just what I am right now I can be grateful for her support instead of worrying about being a burden I'm grateful to you diaryland folk too I felt like I was out of the bunker blinking in the sun but I didn't feel alone I have to make saline solution to clean my nose And try to sleep on my back I toss and turn, eek I don't feel anything though! It doesn't hurt at all and I forgot it was there a bunch of times I accidentally poked it when I washed my face and that stung a bit But I don't think it's going to be a sensory irritation I can feel it when I pout which is oddly satisfying I think it might be a new stim Im going to take a few days/a week/two weeks? to recuperate And then go to the dentist I have to find a new gig I want something permanent that doesn't make me want to pull my hair out The good thing about the piercing is I can't settle for/hide behind the awful jobs where they treat people like dirt I'll have to push I want to explore all the art sites Batata uses And meet Matty for coffee in Heliopolis AND NOT DRIVE THROUGH THE DESERT Help Maru make his haunted Halloween tree thing Poke Mou and Saf Then dating? Nope. Just thinking about it made me nauseous. Baby steps, baby crawling wiggle |