100 I made it! I didn't go to the park I'm dressed, I'll go in a bit I wanted to reward myself by doing something that feels good A massage or getting my hair done A caramel frappe in the sun I couldn't decide I think because that all feels like licking my wounds And I don't want to do that today I'm mad I got hurt, badly hurt And now I'm shaky and afraid to talk to people And this one gets to be Egyptian Banksy And that one gets to be a theatre director who brunches with the Bush family What if they're still predators? Is that my fault? It isn't, I know it isn't but I'm so angry and terrified and I just want to read that they're gone one day And today, I want to be inconvenient Maybe later I'll be uncomfortable I'll get stronger and louder and louder AND LOUDER And they're going to feel a bit sick when they see my name I want them to be scared and shaky And I want to live a long, long time |