99 Are you heathens praying for me or something? I'm too scared to get my hopes up Hope is the most painful feeling now Worse than grief Even fear and that one flips my stomach over I was engaged once to a man called N He was like the well respected man in the kinks song I really loved him until he put the ring on my finger I think he loved me too Until my barbed quills pricked up in captivity Why did he pick somebody like me if all he wanted was to play house in the end? Anyway, I used to freeze and tear up when he was sincere and I was happy-- it was so painful I can't do dramas Maybe romantic comedy heavy on the comedy Silliness is extremely powerful Silliness allows you to hold feelings and face situations that would otherwise be maddening That's why dictators are afraid of memes and tiktok I'm hopeful and I'm trying to find a way to be silly about it |