peanut butter is amazing
she's right of course the hardest thing is to love without getting tired ...or angry, or brash, or arrogant, or delusional and it's really hard not to confuse compromising with giving up it's really hard not to confuse being caring with being too careful it's hard in general because i thought there was this perfect balance- i had enough sense to conclude it was impossible but i still thought it was out there somewhere, this hovering and taunting zen place everyone goes on about it-- the 'feel good' proclamation how to live better, how to eat, breathe, think better in seven and a half easy steps and it's like anyone who's found their peace digs their fingernails into it-- like it's more important than oxygen (and if they reach creepy levels, they're ready to sacrifice their babies) i'm not just talking about religious people-- they already get a lot of flack and i think they're pretty much the only group that really have to go out of their way NOT to be reminded that they sound like psychopaths i mean all the opiates celebrity, the economy, health, animal rights, cheese enthusiasts i don't care. as long as you aren't stealing from, blackmailing, raping or killing anybody (or planning to)-- i really don't care about what works for you because there is no perfect balance, there's no one thing to believe in and i really don't want to hear that the problem with the world is that not enough people think like you and also i'm an idiot for disagreeing. if you want to rant, i'll buy you coffee and froth at the mouth right along with you but don't treat me like i'm less because i'm not following your diet or voting for your man or in love with your cat make a club or a temple, wear a shirt so at least i know when you're looking for recruits i've worked out my balance. it's mine. as far as i know i'm the only one who's divvied it all up this way--and i don't mind. i wouldn't hate company but i'm not actively seeking it either. i think this is the first time in my life i constantly disagree with the people closest to me--and i don't mean about little things but the one thing we do agree on is that it doesn't matter also peanut butter is amazing |