maybe I'm out of bloops Maybe this is the one It was bad today and nobody to call and ended up scratching open my arm which I haven't done in so so so long And Mou said he and Saf will drive me to a psychiatrist and I can get on meds But he couldnt call cause of work And Nou didn't answer and I don't know why But my head filled in the blanks and it was too much I don't want to check in somewhere with no choices Reem said it was miserable inside She only survived because she made a friend But I don't know what to do And I hate that I need help During a class with a VIP client the electricity cut because the villa next door was doing construction and they fucked up the cable And I still want to vomit and it was ten hours ago And I don't know what to do At least I texted an old teacher friend about Kojis brother's kids So hopefully they find a teacher And I'm not completely useless and heavy I'm really tired I can't afford to fix my head or fix my uterus And I'm so tired |