Heartbreak hotel I miss Nou We're friends, it's fine It was a very lesbian break up Still exerted more emotional labor than I should have But she's kind of a baby, she gets a pass Tried to distract myself with the dating app yesterday and today It's really awful I mean truly heinous I ended up talking some creepy guy through his childhood trauma I mean I suppose it's good predatory people open up to me? So I tried to filter out the guys It doesn't let me! They keep popping up But I get more women's profiles now Matched with a cute little lesbian who had a very bubbly ten minute conversation with me before zipping off to some charming event or something I talked to Beebo about everything that happened He laughed and said I should've just let her be my sugar mama Dignity be damned And he said he was proud of me, that I did the right thing That a lesser person would've been blinded by Germany and everything she was offering I had a good cry It's hard I have lesson planning to do and I just can't muster up the energy I did laundry I had hummus Baba discovered a Syrian market so now we have a giant supply of hummus It's good hummus The dating app drained me I used the ear plugs she gave me to make noises less pointy and it made me sad I wonder if she's sad I don't know if I want her to be sad or not If she's sad that makes me sad If she's not sad that also hurts I matched with some people from Alexandria Sea granny land I haven't been keeping up with Maru He seems to have survived the move It's too cold for heartbreak Mean weather I saw a Tiktok of a funny Egyptian guy driving to work while wrapped in a comforter with just his sunglasses sticking out He yelled at his phone that managers are abusive for making people shower early in this weather And that attempting to work in general is disrespectful to nature and the power of winter Amen At least we have sun again I'll try to enjoy potato time I want a three day weekend One day for crying, one day for fun, one day for emails and lesson plans I'll look through the app again, hopefully I don't match with another serial killer looking for free therapy (Why do they like me so much?!)
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