Too much admin And scheduling and sifting through emails about scheduling and scribbling it down but it all gets moved around again It's still a great gig I'm grateful I'm grateful It just pokes my autism routine button And each small change is really jarring I cried on Nou I guess that means I'm comfy Used to get home, wait till Friday And then everything hits me like a ton of bricks Now I'm learning to process in the moment We talk about our brains a lot, her ADHD is more disruptive than her autism and I'm the opposite I think my autism has pretty efficiently masked my ADHD She says working hours are homophobic hahahaha It's true. IT'S TRUE. We're still planning for Germany World events are still playing out in the periphery, can't be too happy, stay vigilant My activist friends talk about how they're being treated in Berlin Koji asked me to tutor his brother's kids He died in Gaza, Kojak's taking care of them now, they're safe in Canada thank goodness I need to find somebody for them I feel bad that my schedule is full with this job and Nou I want to learn how to stubbornly trudge forward in this horror of a world like she does She was fussing/taking care of me and I said it's like she's troubleshooting my happiness She said that's what she does in her own life and she figured out how to make it her job She's just...the most caring, intelligent, cute and talented person I've ever met It's overwhelming and it's really challenging my "abundance mindset" exercises I can't believe I have this or deserve this |