Solarpunk She has so much drive and ambition and hope She has hope Not the squishy weeping vibrating chihuahua kind of hope that I have She has a PLAN We watched videos about the cybersyn project in Chile in the 70s, which failed due to a coup --funny how coups crop up anytime there's any sort of collectivist action or effort She said she wants to build tech that fosters equality We talked about a library economy A solarpunk future -- this part got me excited Artists are imagining the aesthetic of this future I yelled "I can do that! I've done that!" And she said yes! People need to see it for it to happen She gets excited when I get excited And I get excited when she gets excited Imagine everything colonialism destroyed, shared spaces, eating and growing your food by season, the clothes, the music, the shape of the houses Mashrabeya nooks cooling smart circuits in the wall People could wrestle with math and philosophy instead of being insecure about food and healthcare and where to sleep and their jobs I said before I wanted to be a home Maybe I've been imagining somewhere that can be everybody's home? But first I want to imagine our space, Nou and I Our routine and our work desks She makes impossible things seem ... like an annoying Tuesday Not easy-- but doable! Doable I found somebody who dances around the Vogons She loves Douglas Adams too She's had to fight for everything She has to fight to just be herself, in the world Her existence is already a protest But she looks like a tiny curly haired girl with green eyes Not a force of nature People don't expect that from anyone with rosy cheeks We got to cuddle yesterday (both of our work/social plans got cancelled, it felt like divine intervention) Now the cold feels colder I need to concentrate on work and not be the broke one I miss her tiny bum and her curly hair |