It doesn't stop being the end of the world -First gulf war, 4 years old -9/11, 15 years old -Riyadh bombings, 16 years old -Nationwide strikes and protests against the price inflation of bread, my arrest, 21 years old -Revolution, 25 years old -Coup and back to dictatorship that's even worse, 25/26 years old -Mama dies, 33 years old -Covid, 34-35 years old Today I'm 37 I talked to my fellow trainee/neighbor A brilliant 25 year old girl, studying civil engineering -- she's a Sudanese refugee She was here on holiday with her family when they heard their home was looted then burned to the ground And my heart keeps sinking for Palestine, are we really going to watch them get wiped out? And now the Kurds are being attacked too That's North, East and South They're still recovering from floods to the West I feel tired In the back of my head Im always waiting for the disaster I feel like it's circling in It feels like delusion to listen to someone talk about an abundance mentality on my way to a customer service job where people don't eat or sleep I am actively trying to be delusional Because I'm very tired And it's 5am and I can't sleep :( |