fuck this noise some people will never understand what it's like to feel you have to prove you're a person you can't be angry or incredulous or mouthy or lazy or tired because then you're a bad migrant you're a bad refugee you're like the monsters on the news the news that loops a handful of billionaires in a tube they paid to drown in while hundreds and thousands of refugees including children are gunned down on dinghies in the Mediterranean they don't have names or profiles or 24 hour coverage they might treat you like a person if you're one of the good ones one of the quiet, productive ones maybe women understand not being a person at the hospital or walking at night or camping people with disabilities understand not existing and in the rare instances they're seen, being demonized or infantilized people can see with their own eyes the difference in living conditions between groups of people the ones who have poisoned water and the ones who live behind walls and gates it's so clear where the power is it's so obvious it makes me crazy and they want to be philosophical-- both sides human nature it's always a white guy throwing his hands in the air and blaming human nature we're just aggressive apes, Sarah oh yeah? all of us? I guess that makes it okay then ------ I've been talking to my friends about anger It's bubbling out of them And they're ashamed of it They were tortured, alienated and humiliated And they're embarrased that sometimes they get angry I'm angry too, I'm enraged if I'm honest Most of the time Except 2007, when I was in the box (that's what they call the armored car with barred windows) I was in handcuffs It smelled of urine and blood I didn't feel angry then I was smiling There was a boy and his sister following the car, cheering and honking the horn loud enough for us to hear He's in prison now He has been for a long time He missed the birth of his kid, the death of his father Because he's a nice person A good person, an honest person That's it He's never hurt anybody He isn't eating to prove his point instead -- like one of the good ones Nobody (who could do something about it) gives a shit He's going to die in prison I'm not one of the good ones Not at all |