cancel the day woke up to it feels unfair, sneak attack so I had carrot cake for breakfast and then mille feuille for brunch because fuck it I sat with the birds asked them if they remember me pretty sure one said habibty, I could not give less of a shit I like her, she's sassy, we're friends now I still feel drained I poked Kojak but this isn't Kojak I know it's hormones, I know it'll pass That feels meaningless right now but I'm aware of what this is Marwa would say where is it in your body My joints, wobbliness Last week I was walking to Uncle Ragab's store in the sun And I walked around the club with Tante Z in heels, I haven't worn heels in ages Dr. Nermin would say what's the plan ...besides leftover desserts? The plan Is Maybe music in the bathroom? And scrubs and oils and brain tickling smells And that facemask for emergencies in the fridge Dancing frog nightie Fruit bowl jigsaw puzzle And then giving up? Giving up Oh wait, Take an iron supplement and omega 3 and stuff the blood soaked everything in the wash And then give up Face plant Cairo batata |