19 mingling anxiety I'm fawning I caught myself and I still couldn't stop Hello, your necklace is beautiful, I love your eyes, where did you buy that, AHAHAHAHA YOURE SO FUNNY They terrify me when they're in bitch mode The granny clique rift is stressing me out and I don't want to get caught up in anything They don't argue outright It's just this extremely subtle political and psychological minefield 'So I heard K was sitting with Tante N in her garden yesterday' Oh okay, I was ill in bed 'They stay across from you, do you know N?' *panicked scrolling through new granny intros in head* I don't think so? 'Did K tell you?' No she didn't mention it, I heard you took a promenade yesterday though-- I'm so happy you're feeling better Tante 'I'm still not myself no no no. We will walk at 7, join us' I will, feel better tante *internal screaming* WHO IS WE? I'M MEETING K AND A FOR TEA AT 5, SHES DEFINITELY GOING TO SEE US A is an architecture professor, I like her- she's very sarcastic. Apparently she went under the knife and is very hot now. I hope she's still funny As for the grannies, all I know is Duck and Z are giving each other the cold shoulder I have no idea why and I don't know how the lines are being drawn up I sat with Tante S/Rizzo/K's mom two days ago, Tante Duck arrived and I hugged and fawned and ran away before anybody could mention my aunt I thought Rizzo and Z were on good terms but it's possible Rizzo is being neutral which will definitely piss off Z I can't keep up I'm going to play stupid foreign niece Once I can cannonball in the water I'll just swim away from any social warfare Duck is my favorite next to my Tante Z, I can't imagine them yelling at each other, they were thick as theives Ah well K is trying to involve me in gen x activities which as far as I can tell is beach village hopping, shisha and a day in Alex I don't smoke anymore and I don't want to talk to society guys They're boring and arrogant. Everyone just shows off/humble brags while simultaneously trying to figure out everybody else's social capital And I have to pretend I don't know some of the forever bachelors are gay Plus you have to pay to access other village beaches And I know they're going to go to trendy restaurants in Alex And I swear if they try to split the bill equally after they all get shishas Even if I had their disposable income, that's not how I would spend it Maybe I'm being hasty, K's pretty down to earth And closeted gay bachelors are pretty fun |