:) I found myself fighting for this person I barely knew And it wasn't an option to stay away And I couldn't explain why I felt the need to protect him from the people who have always loved and protected me--and I still do I don't understand it I wasn't unhappy And I always avoided his type But he's not a type I'd just gotten through the scariest experience of my life I don't understand it now I feel like I'm obligated to constantly remind myself that I'm ridiculous That this is ridiculous So no one else can call it ridiculous and I don't have to snap at them So that when it all falls apart I can say I figured as much So that maybe I can pretend to be a little more prepared for when it does But I pray every day that it won't And sometimes when I act brave for long enough I believe it And anyway What a pretty brain and face and what a beautiful cuddle to lose |