doubt and pain (and how everyone should wake up at least once) i feel doubt functions very much like pain-- i avoid it when i can but i would never want to live without it it protects me by helping me to understand limits and it challenges me to accept its place in my life without resentment, without hatred or love if i'm not careful it could easily define me i fell in and out of love with pain before i fell in and out of love with doubt-- in my mind that's progress and i suppose i was a good girlfriend because i think i'm still friends with both (this sweet melon morning smell called me to the window just in time to watch the birds wake up the sky shy pink then nostalgic yellow--and i'd been worried about forgetting things but when i stuck my face out into the cool air i realized how uplifting it is sometimes to remember) |