because being gracious for too long inevitably results in the RAGE WITHIN harangue of a diary entry dear ex significant other, your overwhelming 'oh well' made moving on ever so difficult yep, all my doubts over whether i was right in going with my gut (which i'm pretty sure twisted inside of me to shape the words 'DUMP THE COWARD') were absolutely piqued by 'should i even bother trying?' well no darling, not if you might sprain something like oh i don't know, your FAT BLOB OF AN UNDERDEVELOPED HEART you did not even inspire nutella diving, that is how crap i find you. in conclusion-- yes, the hot movie star/doctor man is better than you in bed (and every other aspect of existence) ----- why didn't i say THAT? WHY? ----- in other news, old man with guns and absolute power fucked up today by allowing inferior old man with guns and a little less power to give a shite speech. said speech not only broke but positively mangled the camel's (metaphorical this time) back, resulting in the country protesting in a unanimous 'are you kidding me? just leave and/or die already you ancient fart'...or something to that effect i know, even i can't believe i've had only four years of studying political science to my credit, you're welcome ---- other conflicts (of the internal variety): --cute ethical turkish school for less pay vs. soulless internationally respected school that gives lots and lots of money... with which, presumably i am to paper-mache over my guilt and self-hatred (there's a bias in here somewhere) --i do not want to partake in your mid-revolution artsyfartsy project. if i love you i will try to muster some support. ok, let's face it, i've never been the guernica type. last time someone told me to use my politics background in art they asked me to paint my indigenous peoples. he was white. i felt like i was the native in some ethnographic film. sorry, i'm not in the poster-making business. --i have to, i absolutely have to let go because i have (unequivocally) the most macabre imagination of anyone i've known or know and it has never been nor will it ever be as bad as i think *sigh* end of harangue, bless you if you've read this far :) |