xavier
kundera says everyone has their xavier who lives how they wish to live xavier was born without parents he didnt lose them he just never had them and kundera says, that is why he can be totally free i thought i could betray my parents and be free but i could never ignore the fact that i had them. they'd always be there one way or another. that's why i came back-- you can't really leave xavier had to betray his love for his freedom. why does it always come with such a bloody cruel price huh? sometimes argue that it's somehow more valuable that way valuable in what sense? something built on blood is better? i dont know if i believe that they make me believe i want it, but of course i want what i dont have-- especially when i've never had it that's the easiest lure of all, thats why everyone can fall in love so easily and why staying in love is nearly impossible i want to stop buying and selling ideas that make me cheaper every minute. i love xavier but i resent him so much. he's the kind of person i want to know, but from behind a glass screen. |