sea granny spidey senses I don't do well in the cold I'm a desert baby I still haven't touched snow There was frost and hail once in Riyadh The meteorologists were very excited We tried to make snow angels like in the movies Didn't work but it was fun It's not really cold yet My nose doesn't hurt My toes are toasty I'm a bit scared of turning into a lizard A bear? I'm scared of losing momentum in the cold I'm panicky all the time Before, I was trying to muster up the motivation Now I'm reminding myself that nothing matters so my heart stops banging on my eardrums So I rest in the scheduled time to rest I'm either numb or a raw nerve Which is a healthy response A valid healthy response Is that supposed to be reassuring? I'll feel better when the job starts Routine I need a routine Or a reset I want to go to the park and lie down on the grass Maybe a blanket on the grass My cousin is recovering from surgery I didn't know he was in surgery Flesh eating bacteria, he nearly died Haven't seem him since mama died I wonder if the sea grannies feel that I'm slipping They keep sending adorable messages at really odd times |