another summer boiling point eee! i'm so happy my friend sara's moved here-- that makes three sara(h)s :D she's completely hot! and she's a sweetheart, and she's paki (swiss) noni! i'm so happy :) :) it'll be about a year before she comes to the AU in C though-- but with my academic record, i'll probably still be there :D *sigh* i suppose this would be a good time to mention how incredibly intelligent she is-- and 18 to boot :) also got to yell at khalid once again (thats always fun) i must admit i'm going to miss his insanity-- we're supposed to say goodbye on the sixth who else is going to be as random, as narcissistic? who else will i look to for mind-splitting pain? :D example of his latest derangement: K: so yeah i dreamed about you last night-- you were having sex with this guy and i was jealous! the picture to which he was referring is a black and white picture of me SCOWLING, sarabobara (the fresh one not paki-swiss hottie) thought it was so funny she turned it into a faux-movie poster with the title "KILL PHIL" after the usual yelling it turned into a rather peaceful conclusion though-- he said he loved me, and i said i loved him too actually-- it was nice and that 'brotherhood of man' line from 'imagine' was echoing in my head of course he ruined it-- my response: trust me, you ARENT getting anything out of it in other news-- i miss nonie, she's off in alex with the salmster, i still havent found a class to take (perhaps because i cant bother to look) and i feel insecure about bo-beric now that he's in school again, he's being lovely about it though the plot thickening stuff has taken on a freakin custard-y texture, i saw her...i SAW her and it made my stomach twist...ekh -- why do i do this to myself? i KNOW its nothing, its just like when i thought the Pole was Intelligence (HA) it'll sort itself out i suppose my shoulders are peeling (sunburn) other than that i havent done much of anything since nora's birthday, stayed at home, read de beauvoir -- had yet another existentialist crisis (you'd think after camus and axel i'd learn a thing or two) read a bunch of christian apologetic, neo-platonist muslim, absurdist stuff to try to counter it also-- one question-- why, why, WHY is it that the second i start feeling insecure about a guy, another one shows up? what is this, the THIRD time that this has happened now? i dont CLUB, i dont HIT UP THE CLASSIFIEDS, i dont go to UNI and since july i havent even been WORKING--so how? HOW? all i can say is thank goodness i've learned from my mistakes -- my many, many mistakes-- but still its like, cut me some slack God! i'm trying, i'm honestly trying and it feels like everythings set out to make me lose sight of why ...well not everything :) oh speaking of sight, i'll need to replace my contacts soon-- incredibly convenient as my glasses are currently BROKEN i broke them at nora's place...again... a very messy process including dental floss (dont ask) i cant wait for uni to start, i cant wait to be distracted from distractions :) i cant be left alone with my head, i just cant |