i want to be here now i'm supposed to add a class to my schedule for university last i checked (three months ago) all the classes i could possibly want/need to take are cancelled/full/conflicting with the classes i've already registered for ugh if only 'back to school' were only about stationery shopping (which i'm completely looking forward to, sadly enough) i hate myself. when i'm sitting still, i want to be busy when i'm busy, i want to be still i dont want to wait for a tragedy to happen i want to appreciate it now i'm really afraid that i wont learn how when i was younger, i'd tell my dad that i'd pray for something awful to happen to me-- so i could understand ironically, i feel like that was when i appreciated the little things most living in that weird expatriate bubble of a compound in saudi, no current english television, no internet-- it was all about the little things, and i didnt even know it i dont want to wait until ten years from now when i look back at what i had and think-- i didnt even know it |