i'm even more legal now i'm 21. adult. can own home and alchohol. it's strange. well, this is what i'm going to do: i'm going to understand that everyone is human, because in all this time i still haven't managed to grasp that i'm going to know that everyone feels this fear and this silliness and this anger and this solemnity no matter what kind of face they've perfected and put on. and i'm going to stop expecting angellic behavior. i'm going to accept being disliked and ignored ... actually that's pretty easy for me, this is the hard one: i'm going to accept being liked, and loved. and i won't feel apologetic when someone cares or remembers or smiles at me. and i'm going to stop trying so hard to be myself because its obviously not working and i'm going to float on the water and sleep on the sand and have a wonderful spring break knowing that i've made it this far without breaking anyone or myself |