"wait that's kind of deep"
You can't expect honesty from somebody who doesn't know how to be honest with themselves At that point, the onus is on you Then I spilled the tea on old Egyptian famous people because at one point in the early 2000s I was of the glitterati And if I wanted to be an evil Egyptian deuxmoi for has-beens and old celebrities I could be That's filed under "alternate careers I could have had if it weren't for my stupid whiny conscience" Beebo enjoyed it, I think it was kind of validating for him Gen Z don't know much about local history, yes they have community but they don't have roots And queer elder millennials and X-ers are still quite closed and judgmental I was talking about queer circles in the early 2000s during my interview to join an online local community I shouldn't feel this ancient I wonder what stories from the 60s were like -- and the 70s 80s 90s I relate to feeling unmoored in that way I learned about my parents' histories so much later in life and it was like pulling teeth And there are still a lot of holes --- I really love her Still don't know if it was requited, still don't know what being Mirror Girl 2 and potentially more would've been like Don't know if I'll ever find out It would be nice It would be nice to know in 5 years when she's had a lot of relationships and when she's been at this end of a relationship with a polyamorous person who has another primary The new girl, mirror girl 2.0 I should've talked to her about primaries Eh, she'll find out on her own Theory and practice, relationship utopia I called Emily She's gone through a breakup too (so I guess I've had a mirror girl of my own, it is weird that we've been going through the same things at the same time for the past 20 years) We're going to hug and poke each other's wounds She has the same thing about feeling old and young when it comes to dating women Plus being a mama is another complicated layer I wish I could schedule time to be heartbroken Heartbreak holidays should be a thing |