I like Nou Dating girls is better because we talk about our feelings Our feelings about feelings And we have a rich vocabulary for our feelings Nou is frightening in a deep and dark way because she's just lovely and likes the books that I like and we keep saying jinx and she's very gentle and very strong She offered to help draft me an AI prompt for an uncomfortable work email She has very soft greeny bluey eyes She kinda reminds me of old Hollywood actresses She plays dungeons and dragons with her friends online and nobody's drunk and nobody's making creepy elf rape jokes (everything I try is traumatizing) And she played piano and I played guitar and we figured out which key is right for Chiquitita because she loves Abba too I really like her and it feels terrifying and painful it's humiliating to be like this I feel like a mess and I don't want any of my mess to affect her in any way |