to-function list There was a comfort in befriending the creepy crawling things I knew with certainty where I stood 1. Live through July-- and the impending clusterfuck that is your sister and mother under the same roof during holy speed bump month I hope I die in the crossfire I think the valium will come in handy 2. Swim Ignore the homoerotic subtext 3. Enjoy touch- until he's gone 4. Sing in W's bedroom. Ask him if he's still afraid to go outside. Play with his dog. Stare at the ancient framed poster on the wall. See--they have fears too--the glittering famous people You'll stop being sad if you keep moving 5. Ignore the lamp. It doesn't mean anything. And if it does-so what? It's not like he's your first monster He's a possible candidate for your last At least he doesn't open your legs and compare your cold dry exposed cunt with whatsherface's and your friend's That's a terrible thing to make a standard God you need therapy 6. Smile. Heave up the corners and crinkle your eyes. Keep your mouth shut and talk with your body. |