a good cry lala and i have something odd in common you know we're really upset when we aren't showing it most people have to work themselves up to cry-- we have to relax to cry i got to cry today, it was really good it was a really calm trip i don't think i could've handled it without lala to hug me, she smells like family everything seems ironically beautiful when i'm high and i actually admitted some things to myself that i haven't been able to think let alone speak i hope despite everything she understands she's special to me i hope despite everything |