hey you i wonder if you know they call you lady, you probably don't know you're the first little thing to bring me joy without asking for anything in return i remember i considered stomping around with the violence of the other children on your home but you were so bright and so unaware i couldn't bring myself to do it so you're also responsible for my first moment of quiet outside like i've always been inside it was you, not the waves roaring beside our school. the waves were responsible for my first moment of exhiliration i'd completely forgotten about you and i'm sorry there are two kinds of sorry one that acknowledges that i did something wrong and one that says i feel how you feel and i know it sucks i don't like the first one very much--giving it or receiving it it's a little self indulgent in the sense that it's more about yourself than somebody else so it's the second, i couldn't help forgetting but i can understand how much you've missed me i can't believe you waited sixteen years to get in my hair again but i'm glad you did you're telling me to be quiet outside like i've always been inside i've always been inside |