my loop today my mother talked to her brother mitoy, a man she hasn't seen in seven years. my father will take care of the house and deal with the people installing air conditioners. i could never, ever be my parents. i love them but it scares me to death that i could eventually have their lifestyles. life-style...my parents wouldn't make any of the magazines. the feminist organization thing that organized the play i was part of is trying to get in contact. and here i was planning on wasting my summer. su and nonie have started their summer semesters. eventually i'm supposed to visit. eventually i'm supposed to meet gehad, a friend of ours who spent a year abroad in japan. we've all been doing our own thing though and i'm not sure anyone is willing to pull the others into their loop which means idle, awkward chitchat because everyone is too afraid to say something that means anything.
lots of fighting with my parents which had me really depressed and upset at the end of the semester. lots of awkwardness with nonie because of ill-timed depression and time apart. lots of hanging with sara and writing songs and hooking jazz up with magazine things. THEN quitting smoking which i'm still struggling with resolving things with my parents who had known i was smoking (just in case you thought i was evil and trying to hurt myself...again) more writing songs with sara and waiting to talk to her friend hani who writes songs
there for all the world to see my loop. |