a short informational break. for your information (avid readers of "i-lost-sarah") i only write in this thing when i'm completely depressed the enlightened ones had muses, i have suicidal tendencies-- deal secondly, i'm tired of explaning things and yet cant seem to escape doing so... Enter Bubble Theory: They're more fun on the outside looking in, or looking out, or looking wherever you wish really, i dont know how to explain why choice and freedom are important to me or anyone for that matter besides choice and freedom are loaded words, or as freshy says "american" dreams she says. well i can't very well explain those to someone who's never had them can i? dreams, freedom, choice...they kill, and rape, and terrify and i suppose i'm against all that macabre stuff but somehow i feel the stability of rule can do something far worse something i cant force or allow someone to recognize especially those who have never known of anything else. ---- the word 'conservative' is confusing me. also--i want to figure out the difference between 'harmony' and 'peace' also--i want to understand if 'zero sum game' theory applies as generally as they say they who are they and why do they keep fucking with me? --- the guy who is supposedly...essentialy a 'man whore' is enamored "with the best" TOO ... i never said he was the best. he still manages to be condescending and narcissistic while confessing something vulnerable and sweet --how on earth do people pull that off? can someone teach me? can it be taught? in any case. the last thing i need is a vacation 'infityfye' -- i've been on a mental vacation for over a year now and these abstractions are dizzying
nah theres no such thing as too much bergman. i need a light for my tar to fill my lungs. |