having an amazing second week! they're playing "Hello" on tv! i love lionel! whats up with really cute, intelligent men having crazy, ditzy daughters? anyhoo life is WONDERFUL! being organized and making priorities and having wonderful supportive friends actually pays off! also wonderful is a beautiful word. full of wonder :) HEHEHE, yes, i'm high on endorphins--moving on: i didnt get a fine for turning in books late, my professer is letting me recycle old research so i'm ahead and my intimidating professer is intimidated by me! AND i got to see a kurosawa film also i was totally invited to sit with people AND i totally rejected them okay thats not true but i didnt over-analyze the clique power dynamics and obsess over it ...okay thats not true either BUT i'm not making being liked by everyone i ever meet a priority--and its really, really relieving and oddly, makes people like you more PLUS, jazz was right again having stuff to do makes time slower, because you associate every second with an action i always thought it was just the opposite--action distracts you from time, but its just not true PLUS i dont feel selfish. i used to feel guilty about liking myself and feeling happy, but it makes me less of a burden to depressed people AND occasionally its infectious, so really its frikken emotional philanthropy -- its funny how the littlest things like finishing homework on time can make you feel like a conqueror :) Peas and Lurve. |