you are fearless but i am afraid. you can't hide behind your youth anymore you aren't right because you're the loud one and you don't have the right to be the loud one i'll scream louder but it'll be more effective because my words will be quiet my words are true you've lost your chance to be patient you've lost your chance to be compassionate you've lost your chance to swallow what you think protects you its my turn to be troubled its my turn to have needs its my turn to be angry i've earned it i've been still for lifetimes you couldn't hold your breath for a microsecond you lower your eyes with expectations humility is a temporary state you tolerate so that you can be righteous wronged better well you know what i am a fuck up adequacy is an ideal to me but because i'm despairing i'm hopeless and because of that, i dont expect, i dread when my fears aren't realized i celebrate and i can honestly say i scorn no one more than myself ---- i respect conviction but i'm in awe of those that have the courage to be scared |