54 post therapy I like TV shrink lady She's a nerd And she gets me And she has cute curly hair and she's vulnerable I'm so glad the assessment part is over She said it makes sense that I trust the wrong people because healthy relationships have never been modelled for me We learned I freeze when things are scary But she said in general, I'm a fighter (I bloop, freakish buoyancy acknowledged, yay) She explained to me why somatic therapy worked for me but also fell short I love getting answers I hate when therapists just sit there with loaded hmmms --- 6 main painful emotions: 2 maladaptive expressions: Regulation model: (3 main maladaptive thought patterns: in danger, not appreciated, not good enough) I pumped my fist into the air and said TRIFECTA! And she laughed. I'm so glad I can be funny and she finds me funny. Therapists who don't laugh make me feel like a lab rat. 5. Meditation and grounding techniques. Yay! I know those already, box breathing, tapping, observing and naming surroundings/sensations 6. Go with the flow. Don't sit in it, go about your day, work, see friends Do this when you feel uneasy --- Next week we'll review all that, I'm going to do it religiously every time I feel bad I told her I keep diaries and have been since I was 8 so this writing/documenting mission is exciting She said excellent with a pleased wiggle And then I pleased wiggled And we nerd nodded at each other with teeny smiles of recognition I feel hopeful, teeny bit scared -- not regulation model level scared though :) |