Day 11, full I'm pretty sure I've been feeding this mosquito for a week How long are their lifespans anyway? Zombie mosquito, no that's dated now Parasitic mushroom mosquito I haven't watched it, I'm not going to watch it-- I don't care how beautiful Pedro is He is very beautiful But my head's jumpy enough as it is The mosquito gave me nightmares I was a mosquito pod, like Ridley Scott alien style And I woke up mid self-immolation I'm slipping a bit I had coffee I almost binged, I wouldn't say it was a full binge but I know I pushed it And I took laxatives I don't need Fasting's been difficult Just culturally, certain behaviors are normalised For other people it's being a little naughty For me it's "hello darkness, my old friend" At least I didn't smoke I can't keep saying that Maybe until day 30 I can be a brat for a month No excuses after that I think I overshot again Hyper is slipping into hypo Just want a warm weighted blanket Marky wants me to meet his new toyboy when he comes back from the coast Mou and Saf want to have dinner at a trendy restaurant I feel too wobbly in the knees I wish I could be a pizza in an automated fast food oven Get plopped in and roll out done on the other side I feel sad for Ozzy I can't be a therapist, I mean look at me Hope he's okay I can't make things okay but I hope he's okay |