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Affectionately, toz feya w toz feek
Written @ 11:56 p.m. on 2023-03-20

we argued about politics and I'm SO proud of myself for not smoking

I know it wasn't just politics

it was ego too

and he had just been very vulnerable

and I was stressed about my family and my insides were screaming NICOTIIIINE

I still expressed my feelings and showed I cared

and I stayed away from the ciggies

pat pat on the back

maybe it's his turn on Newton's cradle

maybe we're done swinging

and it hurts but it's okay


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I had a very beautiful and unexpected chat with my broski

it almost felt like a sign

like oh this is what active listening feels like

oh this is how expressing feelings about politics without posturing goes

that is nooot what we did

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I love him
I'll always love him
But never at the expense of loving me
Never

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