I saw your notes! I send you hugs I went through my back catalog too Yeesh Like I said, I have endometriosis Basically my uterus lining is over eager and grows where it shouldn't (it's kind of amazing, imagine if testicles grew where they shouldn't, we would know about it-- it would be in history books) Apparently most people shed two spoonfuls of blood a day I did not know that I thought my crime scene pollock pants were normal I also thought writhing around like the possessed kid in the exorcist from gut stabby knife blender cramps every month was normal It took ages for me to be diagnosed and even longer to switch gynos and get treated It's been 4 months since my hormone shots which have put me in temporary menopause I get hot flashes and have no libido New gyno lady listens and asked "Any other side effects?' 'Depression and anxiety but that isn't new for me' *throaty cackling * No high five? Cool cool cool... She's cute and young and conservative But the cool kind of conservative "Are you a virgin or married?" -- average Egyptian intake interview I tilted my head and said "Nei...ther?" Her eyes widened a bit but she moved on Jezebels need their fibroids and cysts zapped too Reading those old entries with no libido was 😬 interesting It's good I think? Cringing means progress? The therapy worked? (I recommend somatic therapy if you have CPTSD) I'm happy to be back This past year has been about getting a lot of things back Marie Kondo-ing my soul Thank you competitive ego, you no longer give me joy, into the garbage bag, in you go My sisters calling, I have to go If you've ever watched fleabag, we had that kind of dynamic She was the put together one Now we're both messy together It's very unexpected and squishy My mama would've been pleased More hugs for you! I hope you're all well ❤️ |