And the irony is
Turns out, I was his! And he is so okay with the following logic that he felt the need to share it with me: You're right and what you're asking of me (no contact with his ex who explicitly has said she has feelings for him and said she doesn't care about his new relationship and "hates" his happiness) is fair -- however I am too proud and stubborn to act on it at this time Love ya loads, you're a life changer, I see myself sooo differently now ... And as I swallowed the rage and thousands of ways I could end him I have chosen instead to block him and try to remember the times he was kind and vulnerable and try really hard to believe it wasnt an elaborate form of masturbation for him And hopefully by not ending him, I might demonstrate that not all humans are actually garbage who keep files of dirt on each other, gagging for the chance to use them And to all the garbage humans who break children who were once children broken by human garbage Stop, look at what you're doing, you're part of something bigger than you You dont have to define yourself by what you've done and you're allowed to be hurt by what's been done to you You're not allowed to give up and keep hurting others and hurting yourself If you feel guilty, do something about it, confess, give back, work to protect who you hurt Dont wallow and push people away, you'll drown And that's not tragically beautiful or understandable or dignified in any way That's pathetic That's stupidity That's the stupid kind of pride That's Trump and Kim K and awful idiotic people Don't be an idiot |