Talk to yourself like someone you love -Is something wrong? I feel as though there's something wrong but there's nothing too terrible happening really -You don't have to minimize yuck in your life just because there's worse yuck in the world, there's always worse yuck. It's a good exercise to look for perspective but you can take it too far. You've got to let yourself feel a little bad and a little hurt sometimes. I'm afraid of finding comfort in self pity. And whenever I'm afraid it snowballs. I become afraid of being afraid of being afraid ad infinitum -How do you stop being afraid? You don't really, you push through it. And then you look back and realize that's brave. -So what's important now is not to stay still and not to give in to your fears. To do that, try to identify what you're afraid of and then go the other way I'm afraid of messing up and being lazy. I'm afraid of losing Douda. I'm afraid of the future with him in a new country in a new role. -What do you think you can do to avoid realizing these fears? Run in the morning, find a job to pay for the design tools. Accept that I can lose D and know that's okay. Stay honest with him and accept that any reaction is valid. Step out of my head and live in the present, I'm not leaving Egypt yet, it's not temporary yet. -The anxiety is temporary. You know it's going to be okay, you just don't feel it yet, so ride this out I will -*pat pat* Purr |