why you should live through a heavy night Last night I entertained doom and gloom. I couldn't imagine a future and I couldn't breathe or sleep or sit still. Dawn broke literally and metaphorically- when I told my mother the truth. The beautiful thing about hopelessness is if you're lucky, you can work up the nerve to be honest. Helpless hapless hopeless honest is a powerful state of being. Please remember that if you feel certainty about anything- including impending ruination (especially that)-you're being a histrionic idiot. I'll always be afraid of a good thing- but I have to remind myself all that means is I ought to try to be brave It's a chance to be brave |