I don't want to lose faith MK, I'll never speak to you again And C, that's the last kind thing I'll do for you I'm tired of being the whore with a golden heart And I'm tired of making S's prophecy about attracting people in transition true I'm not in transition anymore And if I do help, it'll be in a professional capacity as a therapist or a teacher I'm sore And it won't stop I'm not a cruel person And I don't regret being a soft place to fall But all the falling's bruised me now I'm all kinds of ugly purple and blue I feel misshapen I'm tired of being good enough to love and nothing more I'm tired of being faulted for what I was raised to be, giving and forgiving Open and honest If you're out there, today is the first day I feel like I'm not going to find you I made specific wishes before And they've come true I wish for a friend, a noble person, with a remarkable mind Someone who won't make me pay for their mistakes Someone who'll love my vocab nerdiness :) And my music Someone who'll love me underneath-- who'll never let me ask Someone who'll search for me and see me Someone with a passion that he'll want to share with me most Someone who'll let me take care of him because he knows he'll never let me get hurt Someone who wants to fight for me Someone who'll never treat me like a toy Someone who'll see me, every part of me-- even the parts K and my family and all my other friends haven't seen Someone who'll make me cry with relief Someone who'll love my family and open his life to me the way I'll open my life to him Today I feel so far away from him |