why i love love more than i love you i was trying to say that i wasn't asking you to be fake and i really, really, really hope that you know me better than to think i'd ask that of you i was trying to say that maybe you might want to be careful about what you say or do around me, because being a neurotic, insecure and hopeful person, i might interpret what you say or do as more than what you mean and then i'll get to thinking that you owe me things that you don't, and i'll get upset that i don't have them when i'm not even sure that i want them it's the principle of it see i don't know if i want to be needed. but i know that i dont like being needed and then...not. i'm trying to work on being okay with that. you can't blame a person for not always feeling exactly the same way about you--it's not like they can control it. of course i'm allowed to feel hurt and angry but i dont want to be like that it's just kind of useless. it takes up space you know. sometimes you just have to let go of people who let you go--because if you don't they'll never come back to you and you'll never move on it's not quitting. i know it feels like it and it's a lot harder than being hurt imagine that--something more difficult than being hurt :) it's not quitting. it's trusting. not in someone and not in yourself but in something else entirely --and that line is exactly why i'll always be the most superstitious, religious, faithful agnostic that you'll never meet :) |