be all you can be (but try not to shoot anybody) i tried to write a song again he said to try he says things with such sincerity i feel compelled to take what he says deeply the first line scares me 'the man in the sky floats face down watching everybody drown' i know it's a good sign when what you make scares you is this really where i am? sometimes i believe that i dont act on my potential because i don't consider it potential i know i'm capable. i know. i used to say the worst feeling in the world is loneliness but that isn't the part that hurts not at all, i often take comfort in that pain the worst feeling in the world is fear the kind of panic that makes you less than human and not in the sense that everyone imagines-- that animalistic impulse to throw yourself into everything wholeheartedly that doesn't strike me as less human because much of being human is being animal, despite how often we try to repress that side to mould ourselves into the higher beings we imagine ourselves to be sex can't be sensation it has to be spirit because we have to be better, we give ourselves the right to assign worth in order to feel worthy no i'm not afraid of being a thinking feeling animal i'm afraid of being afraid i don't even know what i'm afraid of or for whose sake but i know that when i feel scared... when i am scared, it so consumes me and so paralyzes me that i become someone, something else i believe to be human is to be all the subtleties that make you who you are to act on several motivations to be so much at once didi once said, 'you know you're in trouble when you've only got one voice in your head' when you look at what you do, ask yourself, how much of it is driven by just one thing? and remember that you are not just one thing whether you are afraid or loving or ambitious you are not just one thing |