Chamomile I don't know if it's a placebo or it's genuinely knocking me out like a tranquilizer I felt gooey and numb I bought a bunch of sleepy teas, couldn't find plain chamomile This is a mix of stuff, St Johns wort, chamomile, fennel, lavender Whenever I hear noises in the house my heart jumps into my throat But on the tea it's a bit muted Okay the house noises are nuts It's definitely haunted And they're LOUD about it This better not be late onset schizophrenia, not now Chugging tea until I can get the meds Nou's covering it for me, which is kind It's annoying when you can't be mad at somebody who's dumped you I'm grateful though Maru sent me a video of a pottery festival that has vendors selling gorgeous handmade plate sets and asked if I wanted to go I said too anxious He said me too but handmade plaaates I said so prettyyyy And we both turned back into our bed burritos Beebo and Saf and Mou check on me too Nou is doing most of the heavy lifting though, out of guilt I suppose I'll take it It's kind I can't make any life plans Tomorrow I'll know if Baba is sick or not If it's cancer that changes everything If not, I still have to think about how to work and how to make changes so my life is better and I have more spoons Nou calls them spoons I wish I could draw online and animate my drawings too It looks so cool I want a tablet and I want to draw too |