end of training day 9 there were protests outside/near the building but I didn't see them calling on the big useless shill to take action and let our aid trucks through Hassan called to check up on me at midnight, it was sweet the half Palestinian girl could barely collect herself in the morning/late afternoon we all gathered around her Im glad I don't live in a cold country Inside the building they did give us an update from hq apparently ppl have been getting harassed and called terrorists so they made a company wide message saying we don't have to accept hate speech we're allowed to pass on those calls no questions asked other kinds of harassment we still have to absorb though HA they told us they're going to block the hate speech numbers but I suspect that was just to appease everyone they'll probably route them somewhere else my colleagues are opening up to me I remembered witchy K's words this is a special ability and I shouldn't regard it as a burden but as a responsibility so I listened and responded authentically I'm also keeping in mind my boundaries and energy level but I've been okay, no one really pushes and they're all extremely respectful of rest and space (nature of the job I suppose) I feel more confident on the system too it's a completely different experience from my last customer care job at a telecom company it's still inadequate but it's a less hellish hell so I'm kind of glad for the previous crappiness and in general I really like the culture of this generation I respect them and relate to them more than I ever did with my peers theyre all kind of like third culture kids because of online communities and social media so much more aware of the world and really smart and hard working they have this cynicism which shouldn't surprise me but to see it on their young faces breaks my heart sometimes I can see myself climbing up the ladder sometimes I think, hey if you last a month in this place that's an achievement the city still looks like a foreign place from my bus window I don't know these desert suburbs anymore I remember buildings under construction now there are fancy malls and plazas and gyms everywhere so disorienting and it's not walkable not like downtown-- they've taken steps to make the city less walkable too no history here shiny multinationals pet projects for Egypt's elite papa, I'm opening a boutique I feel like I've come out of a coma and my face registers as a kids face but I don't want to be in my twenties I don't want those insecurities again I don't want those conversations I guess I'm collecting paintings and biography notes too Soon I'll splat and cry cry cry I'll write here if tomorrow deviates from this new routine Ooo checkpoint for our bus just before my neighborhood That's neeeeew He must be shaking in his boots GOOD |