95 every now and then my suburban life my late stage capitalism neighborhood with elaborate gardens and literal fountains in the desert and caramel frappes and online shopping and yoga studios and gel nail artists and dogs in clothes and street sweepers with thousand yard stares and bathroom attendants with pinched faces and day laborers sprawled out on the grass, in the shade, if they're lucky every now and then the dizziness gets to me I snap back into my body and the sick punches my stomach and I lose my knees but feeling is self serving and numbness is self serving the only free people are in prison and I'm too afraid to be like them most people are afraid and waiting for a critical mass of dissent to safely fold themselves into when I was too young to understand, I got arrested only 3 days and 2 nights I didn't know I was free because I was free all the time I guess that's another way to be free, youth and stupidity But you can't pick that one |