78 panic Dread? no panic, more panic I don't know at what I feel it in my upper back and throat, like I'm going to be sick I can't think of a trigger or a motivating thought I can guess? The sandy weather, the emails that don't explain anything, missing the routine of training, Maru being ill, looking up hospice options for Koji, family being snippy I'm not supposed to guess But yeah those seem like valid reasons to scream internally Screaming's relieving Yesterday someone said I reminded them of Miss Honey from Matilda And I screamed and ugly cried thank you sobs |