Dawn 36 Didn't sleep Chatted with my aunt Tess in Sydney, she offered her house because of course she did Filipino aunties are angels I told her I'm probably going to aim for Victoria and places with teacher shortages but will get on a bus and hug her every holiday We joked around a bit and she said I was pilya Which means mischievous in Tagalog She likes when I'm cheeky She and mama are the OG puckish sprites Then, a little chat with Oz, he was encouraging and it made my heart hurt a lot Then I asked Maru if he was allergic to anything in my care package and we chatted about Disney and cursed sequels Then Kosha called, he bumped into his ex wife, eek And then I was the one to be encouraging He's younger than me, I told him I was his ghost of Christmas future and in 7 years he's going to regret not studying in Berlin He got excited and we vented about everything wrong with Egypt and our toxic families We decided our weeping/movie nights are going to be escape planning nights We're getting folders, the teacher in me got intense about stationery We manifested like white people Kosha's going to be a superstar musician And I'm going to be an eccentric old lady in the documentary about him, Answering questions from my garden and petting sheep, while Ozzy prunes a bush in the background I've packed almost everything for the Red Sea trip Just have to put away toiletries and things after I get ready I made lists I'm making so many lists Maru said I'm the most organized chaotic person he's ever met and I can make anything happen Kosha will probably end up in Germany before I end up in Australia My younger siblings are icing me out And baba changes the subject whenever I talk about work/moving At first it was ow and hard to regulate But now my 2012 electropop mantra is "I don't care, I love it" The urgency is real, the coldness The mind numbing news But I don't care I love it Not going to be guilt tripped or despair Not going to be wounded or suffocated Iii don't caaaare |