a poot for your thoughts? 💨 baba's been ill getting tested some more after tomorrow he's being a little stubborn I can't process it it's been 4 years since mama this month I really can't day 3 no ciggies which everybody says is cue breakdown day it wasn't so bad I ended up crying on laundry mid chat with Ozzy he was distracted by a bat a literal bat because Australia he's really animated, kind of like Billy Connolly 'it swooped in like fufufufufufu!' wiggly fingers something he does whenever I'm emotional and getting lost in my head he'll panic, and go LOOK AT THAT THING or make the dumbest, fartiest joke and I have no idea why it makes me laugh every time didn't see that when I was younger ow so many feelings to feel my brain is like, hey I've found a replacement drug for us-- look, look it was just here! it has big beautiful deepset eyes and a proud Arab nose that makes no sense next to the European features and a pouty mouth that twists into tragicomic shapes that you want to write poems about and it moves like Mick Jagger and it remembers tiny details from 10 years ago and you have to inhale really hard so you don't sob * all * the time and it says hey maybe don't make me a drug, for your sake I swear oh. no we ignore that because it has the sexiest voice on the planet and it feels like electricity when we hear it and it plays music like it's ripping the notes out of its heart aaand it's looking at us like slow down please crackhead but it's too kind to say things like that now... fine. FIIIIINE. when did he turn into the grown up nope, that answer is sad Sarah and you know that I don't think I could do this without writing here my endometriosis cramps were almost nothing this time I don't know if it was the fenugreek or the love everything feels like a miracle or a terrible omen all the time yeah, some fartiness would do me good |